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i'm having a hard time figuring out why the entire world can't act like adults. even when you're in a huge shitty situation, you can still behave like a respectable adult and leave innocent parties out of your self inflicted messes. i feel like i'm being dragged through the mud for no reason. mud that's not even my business. i have my own issues and they are tangled enough. there are so many loose ends willowing sofly around me and i can't grasp them to tie them up. i started first with deleting a few peoples numbers off my cell phone to eliminate the possibility of being tempted by communication. i guess that's a start. i'm done with allowing other people to hurt me just because we have a history and i care about them. sometimes you just have to gracefully cut the strings that tie you to someone else or they'll kill you struggling against you. i'm losing people. i'm getting grinded down.