I am truely sorry.
Today has sucked. It's the first day back to school and it has just been crappy. I woke up at 5:30 this morning, mind you, I didn't go to bed until about one. I got ready for class early because I had to go get gas for the car and stuff. I arrived at school around 7:45ish. My first class at 8, yeah, I'm retarted and it's on everyday except Wednesday, and then my 9:00 class doesn't start until the 21st. I got up early for nothing. I could have slept for at least 2 more hours. gr! My other two classes were okay, I just can't wait to get out of IV. I have to work at 1:30 today. I'm not looking forward to it at all. I am because of the money, but I just am sooo sleepy.
I've decided that I really need to become a nicer person. I get so angry and upset about stupid things and then cause a huge argument over nothing. He is right. I always have to win the argument, no matter what I have to say to do it. I am such a complete aweful person for what I said last night, and I totally and completely take it back. In fact, I even feel as though I'm not a good enough person for him, and I want to see him with someone who is a better person than I am. He gives me everything, and I take it for granted. I know I do. I can't help it. I guess I need to lighten up and not take life so seriously. If I ever make him react like he did last night, I will hate myself forever. I have never made anyone react like that before, ever in my life. Why do I always end up hurting the people I love the most? Maybe because I have the most emotion about/for them.
You get back what you put into a relationship. I need to start remembering that. I really want this to work. Extremly bad.
I've decided that I really need to become a nicer person. I get so angry and upset about stupid things and then cause a huge argument over nothing. He is right. I always have to win the argument, no matter what I have to say to do it. I am such a complete aweful person for what I said last night, and I totally and completely take it back. In fact, I even feel as though I'm not a good enough person for him, and I want to see him with someone who is a better person than I am. He gives me everything, and I take it for granted. I know I do. I can't help it. I guess I need to lighten up and not take life so seriously. If I ever make him react like he did last night, I will hate myself forever. I have never made anyone react like that before, ever in my life. Why do I always end up hurting the people I love the most? Maybe because I have the most emotion about/for them.
You get back what you put into a relationship. I need to start remembering that. I really want this to work. Extremly bad.