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I feel sick. I've just gone and booked (and paid for) tickets to visit New Zealand later on this year. I shouldn't feel sick, afterall it's just a holiday. I'm not packing up and leaving the UK permanently. But I do feel horrible now that I have booked

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Re: hey there

[ariel72]

Well, if you believe any of the tv psychics like John Edward, your loved ones are still around you. You can always try thinking or verbalizing a question or something to dad or Ian and see if anyone responds.. usually by some sign that you would recognize as only possible, such as butterflies, flickering lamps, or thoughts coming clearly to your head.. but I wasn't sure if you ever thought that far about the afterlife.
In the mean time, you'll do okay on holiday. It sounds like you're going to see family, and maybe that's a good grounded decision to start with, vs maybe bungee jumping in Africa or something.. (that may not be as wise a decision..)

My sister is like "Am I supposed to wear the black dress and sit in a corner weeping for the rest of my life?." She continued to rent the seashore home for the continuity's sake for the kids that summer, ('04) and this December she will go back to Disney world (I will be going with her) for the first time since R died. She had to kick some major ass to secure her home and belongings, find a job, and continue to survive, she's fiesty as ever and very self sufficient.

You made many smaller decisions after Ian leading up to this larger one. It's a good decision.

Go 4 it!