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So I just got home a little while ago from the Freehold mall with Melissa. I got a cute yellow cardigan and these amazing sunglasses. I'm proud of myself that I didn't spend mass amounts of money on crap, haha. Butttt anyway, it was good times. Then we went to Modell's or whatever it's called, to visit Chris. Then I left Chris and Melissa to go do each other or whatever so now I'm here writing this.
Jon and I are on a "break". I'm so afraid and sick over it and I don't know why it's bothering me so much. I mean, I know we are going to come out of it perfectly fine, but still. I can't help worrying. I think what makes me most worried and/or upset is the thought of him with other girls. I just can't get over the fact that he might be out there with some girl that isn't me. I'm so scared of losing him. And it's not like I'm there or anything, I'm pretty much just in the dark about things. This is such a horrible feeling, seriously. And I'm not even out with any other guy because I don't want any other guy but him. This is terrible, I hope everything will be fine. He keeps telling me not to worry and everything will be fine but I don't know. Well, I believe him, I mean what else can I do, you know? Whatever.
This was a stupid entry. Sorry.
Okay, bye.
Jon and I are on a "break". I'm so afraid and sick over it and I don't know why it's bothering me so much. I mean, I know we are going to come out of it perfectly fine, but still. I can't help worrying. I think what makes me most worried and/or upset is the thought of him with other girls. I just can't get over the fact that he might be out there with some girl that isn't me. I'm so scared of losing him. And it's not like I'm there or anything, I'm pretty much just in the dark about things. This is such a horrible feeling, seriously. And I'm not even out with any other guy because I don't want any other guy but him. This is terrible, I hope everything will be fine. He keeps telling me not to worry and everything will be fine but I don't know. Well, I believe him, I mean what else can I do, you know? Whatever.
This was a stupid entry. Sorry.
Okay, bye.