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ive been in the best mood lately like ive actually been happy. its kindof out of the ordinary because ive felt so alone and shut out which i still sortof do but i guess i hide it well. ive decided im done with everything. i dont need drugs to have a good time. this is big of me and im proud of myself. i just dont want my good feeling to go away and i feel it already fading. wut do u do wen uve finally let urself out and stopped hiding from everyone. i was so afraid to get involved with anyone because of past relationships. im always afraid of being let down n hurt that i push people away. but ive finally opened up to someone n i dont know wut to do. if i should just stop to prevent anything or wut. i just know that because i like him so much something will happen because something always does. i wish i didnt have this frame of mind.