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Naughty Laura, everything? Jebus you must have... played tic-tac-toe too!! ;O
Einsamer Vampire: HEYYY!!
Einsamer Vampire: ;D
DeathMonkey245: hey behbeh
Einsamer Vampire: How was your weekend?
DeathMonkey245: -shrug- boring...just there
DeathMonkey245: i got the first danzig cd, i actually found a store that sold it, the had 1 friggin cop lol
DeathMonkey245: and it was a rip-off for 16 bucks
Einsamer Vampire: Hah that sucks
Einsamer Vampire: I think my mom saw you and Bryan..
Einsamer Vampire: at best buy!
DeathMonkey245: she did
DeathMonkey245: i waved
Einsamer Vampire: she told me =)
Einsamer Vampire: ooo.. I was thinking (this boring stuff but..) I was thinking about what kinda place I wanted to live in lol
Einsamer Vampire: Wanna hear?
Einsamer Vampire: er read?
DeathMonkey245: sure
Einsamer Vampire: Like.. Michelles gona live with me first of all,since we pretty much like the same stuff.
Einsamer Vampire: The house is either gonna be by a lake or a beach of some sort. Were gonna leave a window or two open to let the fresh warm air in and I will always have at least one smelly candle burning to make the house smell o-so-yummie.
Einsamer Vampire: Each room will have its own bathroom, for the convience of everyone in the household. Then Michelle, Zelmira, my mom, and I are gonna take yoga classes and by all like "Uhmm.." lol And it would be cool.. xD
Einsamer Vampire: I'm gonna learn to paint so I would paint the beach and stuff around the house.
Einsamer Vampire: Then were gonna have a golden retriever and a cute fluffy kitten... that will never run away, cause he loves us so much.
Einsamer Vampire: And we chose some wallpapers and a kitchen at home depot today lol
Einsamer Vampire: The house is their gonna be an old, cheap, broken down house which we will fix (family that is) or we will build it from scratch.
Einsamer Vampire: o yeah and I might join the air force.. .but I dont know what im doing as a job type of thing so thats not fore sure just now.
Einsamer Vampire: uhm, what do you think? xD
DeathMonkey245: uhm....
DeathMonkey245: we're living with your family?
Einsamer Vampire: no their helping me build the house, well Michelles gonna live with us
DeathMonkey245: uh huh....
DeathMonkey245: i had a completely different idea lo
DeathMonkey245: they wanna build it or whatever thats cool
DeathMonkey245: i had another idea for interior
DeathMonkey245: me n bryan were thinkin of it this weekend
DeathMonkey245: i wanted at least one room black and i wanna paint a big danzig skull on one of the walls
DeathMonkey245: and for doorways i was gonna make spines for the door frames and skulls at the top
DeathMonkey245: to that room
DeathMonkey245: and i wanted to do band themed rooms
DeathMonkey245: one rooms got korn painted on the wall their style er whatever and buncha kool korn kinda stuff in it
DeathMonkey245: another metallica
DeathMonkey245: and the living room buncha spawn figures and warhammer and whatever else looks cool in there on some shelves
DeathMonkey245: with some skull lamps and stuff from spencers
DeathMonkey245: would be kick ass
DeathMonkey245: thats just what my idea was
DeathMonkey245: and im gonna be roomies with bryan and some others first
DeathMonkey245: so we can share a place with less rent to pay
Einsamer Vampire: Hm, weird that we were both thinking about it this weekend..
Einsamer Vampire: Er, I think I was invited to that idea at one point but I dunno.
DeathMonkey245: y?
DeathMonkey245: its best way to go at first
DeathMonkey245: everyone gets rooms and once we reach that age we're not all at ome at once all the time n e way
DeathMonkey245: plus we have money to get DSL and all cable channel
DeathMonkey245: and that stuff
Einsamer Vampire: Yeah, I think I might stay home for awhile.
Einsamer Vampire: Well thats at least what I think I might do right now.
Einsamer Vampire: Might join the air force.. come home again.. figure stuff out. Eventually build "my dream home", but who knows im pretty, er, I change my mind alot.
DeathMonkey245: heh well dont join till wars over, i dont want you dyin on me
DeathMonkey245: unless your flyin a stealth fighter, then you have slim to none chance of dyin lol
Einsamer Vampire: haha
DeathMonkey245: yeah ive talked to a lot of solders who've come back from over there
DeathMonkey245: its real bad atm
DeathMonkey245: sounds cool, but bad
DeathMonkey245: his best friend got shot, then got killed in front of him beacause a grenade landed in front of them and he jumped on it
DeathMonkey245: and he got shot a bunch lol
DeathMonkey245: but it sounds kool
DeathMonkey245: i might join the army
Einsamer Vampire: cool
DeathMonkey245: im gonna get a job this summetr
DeathMonkey245: save my money up
DeathMonkey245: then when i graduate, ima go tor europe with money i saved and then come back and do college or military
DeathMonkey245: like my cousin michael
Einsamer Vampire: sounds like fun
Einsamer Vampire: Hopefully I'll get a job this summer too... I might not do as well with the saving money thing though. xD
DeathMonkey245: lol
DeathMonkey245: i prolly wont
DeathMonkey245: i end up spending it
DeathMonkey245: but ill try
Einsamer Vampire: haha, same here.
Einsamer Vampire: You know what?
Einsamer Vampire: Maybe this is over exagerating but.. our plans are opposites of each other (or at least completly different).
Einsamer Vampire: I'm sad, we dont even do anythign at all anymore...
DeathMonkey245: i know i was thinkin that we need to do something soon
DeathMonkey245: but its just gonna be compromise on house thing
DeathMonkey245: you stay at home or whatever
DeathMonkey245: ill go move to my own place with bryan and others
DeathMonkey245: and when we eventually get our own toether
DeathMonkey245: **together
DeathMonkey245: then well just split it up
DeathMonkey245: and half it i paint and decorate half you do other half
Einsamer Vampire: That could work, I guess. @.@
DeathMonkey245: :-D
Einsamer Vampire: Your so weird lol I love you <333
DeathMonkey245: heh i love you too
DeathMonkey245: but y am i weird?
Einsamer Vampire: I dunno like sometimes I can talk to you about something and it actually makes sence and then other times its just random stuff.
Einsamer Vampire: Hah, sometimes I even think making sence makes no sence at all lol And then other times I dont care what anyone thinks and.. wow I lost my train of thought.
DeathMonkey245: you should NEVER care what anyone thinks
DeathMonkey245: act how you want
DeathMonkey245: its not OTHER peoples thoughts about you that matter
DeathMonkey245: its how YOU wanna be
DeathMonkey245: its the beauty of america, freedom
Einsamer Vampire: Hah, well its like.. you know how I say stuff about people o their being over damatic? and the stuff I said about Bryan and Kim always making out in lunch? Well I dont want people saying/thinking stuff like that about me.
DeathMonkey245: let em think it
Einsamer Vampire: Id rathe them think nothing about me than something dumb that would irritate me.
DeathMonkey245: IT DOESNT MATTEr
Einsamer Vampire: rather**
Einsamer Vampire: have**
DeathMonkey245: they can think what ever the hell they wanna think
Einsamer Vampire: Well.. thats not the way I think..
DeathMonkey245: cus if they dont like it then its their problem
Einsamer Vampire: I wish I did, but I just dont..
DeathMonkey245: i know its not
DeathMonkey245: you kinda get that from your parents
DeathMonkey245: lol
Einsamer Vampire: hah, I guess.
Einsamer Vampire: They ARE just about the only peopel I spend so much time with
Einsamer Vampire: people**
Einsamer Vampire: JEBUS even spending time with Karen irritated the fuck out of me
DeathMonkey245: because they try to hide you from the world
Einsamer Vampire: no offence to her or anything
DeathMonkey245: lmao
Einsamer Vampire: Sometimes.. I think whatever shit they planned is working.
Einsamer Vampire: Home seams so safe sometimes..
DeathMonkey245: its supposed to
DeathMonkey245: your supposed to go home and feel just like itss some place you can stay thats nice, not having to think about a lot of the shit your parents get you havin to think sometimes
DeathMonkey245: but the thing is, is they try n force you to be home, and basically have allmost no life outside of home
DeathMonkey245: they dont let you go anywhere
DeathMonkey245: like metallica says "..clipped my wings before i learned to fly"
DeathMonkey245: and the danzig sony mother is all about parents that fuckin do that shit
DeathMonkey245: **song
Einsamer Vampire: Well see thats the thing that I think is working.. at times im like why would I want to leave home? type of safe.. instead of that "HOLY SHIT I can wait till I move the hell out of here and move in with Josh.." Like I could be ok with staying here forever sometimes..
Einsamer Vampire: I dont know, maybe Im just thinking too much.
DeathMonkey245: that would be because your scared of growing up
DeathMonkey245: your a little scared of having to go on your own, but that happens to everyone
DeathMonkey245: cus your whole life you've had your parents taking care of that stuff
Einsamer Vampire: Yeah, I guess...
DeathMonkey245: but i bet when you move out you wont be so depressed
Einsamer Vampire: Maybe.
DeathMonkey245: after you stop having to deal with some of tht shit for a few years youll prolly startetting over it
Einsamer Vampire: I guess..
DeathMonkey245: heh
Einsamer Vampire: ugh, Josh I hate not spending any time at all with you after school.. its irritating the hell out of me. I feel like.. were losing things we have in common so we do nothing together because.. of it.. er, blah.
Einsamer Vampire: We do nothing. Fuck!...
DeathMonkey245: thats not it
DeathMonkey245: we've lost nothing we have in common
DeathMonkey245: and thats not why we havent been dong things
DeathMonkey245: we just havent
DeathMonkey245: plus im just not good at thinin of things
DeathMonkey245: but i try
Einsamer Vampire: <333
Einsamer Vampire: Neh, all the shit I ask you to do is just dumb.
DeathMonkey245: hah like what?
Einsamer Vampire: Er.. LPC and Xanga.
Einsamer Vampire: writing me e-mails during that one class of doom.
DeathMonkey245: thats not doing stuff with me...
DeathMonkey245: that would be internet
Einsamer Vampire: Well its somethign you do for me.. but blah
DeathMonkey245: not the same
Einsamer Vampire: nm
DeathMonkey245: but yes i planned on doin that now that we're in same skill center
DeathMonkey245: look, i love you damnit, more than you know, and a little bit of time not doing stuff with you isnt going to change that
DeathMonkey245: and the things you like dont matter to me, its the person inside, if you ended up likin pink and wearin pink dresses and listening to britney spears, id still love you
DeathMonkey245: and there would still be some things we both like
Einsamer Vampire: I know.. im just.. falling apart...
DeathMonkey245: why?
DeathMonkey245: err like in what way
Einsamer Vampire: Sometimes I feel alone and I cry myself to sleep (sorry that sounds over dramatic)... and I know you want to be there for me and you would if could but thats the thing.. you cant and im just.. sad..
Einsamer Vampire: constantly and I feel like im setting myself up for it
Einsamer Vampire: like its my fault im sad for somehow expecting too much out of everyone
Einsamer Vampire: like you said that one time.. I have a way I think everyone should be and people just arent
Einsamer Vampire: I'm setting myself up for failure..
Einsamer Vampire: GOD, im so dumb.
DeathMonkey245: you alone cus your parents wont fuckin let you just go to your fiends for a little while without makin a fuckin huge deal
DeathMonkey245: youd be doin stuff if theyd fuckin treat you like a person
DeathMonkey245: but maybe you expect people to be a certain way or whatever
DeathMonkey245: so then just tell them
DeathMonkey245: dont do all these friggin games tryin to get people to do stuff and not just comin out and sayin, or asking them too
Einsamer Vampire: Eh, id rather them be themselves... I dont need them to change for me... the only thing that bothers me is how people think
Einsamer Vampire: such vile creatures...
Einsamer Vampire: I dont want to get involved with too many people at the moment.
Einsamer Vampire: Another reason why I wanted a schedule change, so I could be with people that I know and I wont have to talk to anyone else.
Einsamer Vampire: That I dont know already..
DeathMonkey245: you dont have to talk to anyone else
DeathMonkey245: you dont wanna talk dont
Einsamer Vampire: I'm not, I just wanted someone to help me with stuff in class in most of my classes.
Einsamer Vampire: Hah, its so funny that Karens in all your classes..
Einsamer Vampire: Something that did and would happen to me.
DeathMonkey245: i wish you were
Einsamer Vampire: Yeah.. me too..
DeathMonkey245: but your not so i dont dwell on it
Einsamer Vampire: Heh, unlike me.
DeathMonkey245: i know
Einsamer Vampire: <3
DeathMonkey245: part of being depressed
DeathMonkey245: you can just "go with the flow" you think of your feelings too much
DeathMonkey245: and other things about people
Einsamer Vampire: Heh
Einsamer Vampire: I wanna spend time with you.. and take pictures. I love pictures, though I'm not good a taking them and I would be dumb and put them on one of my online journals and brag about how I have the best boyfriend ever. <3
Einsamer Vampire: I think Im gonna buy a camera like my sisters (not digital) and start taking black and white pictures, those are the sheist.
DeathMonkey245: lol anyone ever agree with you?
Einsamer Vampire: Which part?
DeathMonkey245: b/f part
Einsamer Vampire: Eh, thats one thing I dont care about what other people think about, cause I love you and what anyone else thinks doesnt matter.
DeathMonkey245: cus i dont think i am
DeathMonkey245: but,yeah
Einsamer Vampire: <3
Einsamer Vampire: The only thing that would change about you (and me actually lol) is that we talk more.
Einsamer Vampire: I dont see why we dont.. cept maybe that I care too much about what people think sometimes.
DeathMonkey245: i try n talk to you
DeathMonkey245: but your not very talkative in person lol
Einsamer Vampire: Heh, yeah I guess its just alot easier to talk online cause then I could actually think before I say something and go back and fix it, I guess.
Einsamer Vampire: Then I have to have like an actual topic to start talking..
DeathMonkey245: well you can go back and fix it in real life too
DeathMonkey245: you say it, and after you say it, if you think of something to change you just say whatever you said wrong
DeathMonkey245: its easy
Einsamer Vampire: heh, yeah I guess.. its just I hate saying something dumb cause I know someone will say something and it would piss me off, but thats just how I am I guess.
Einsamer Vampire: Then either way in the end if its like not really about somethign.. I cant really say much so er thats what I say. Not much..
DeathMonkey245: if you say something dumb you gotta be able to laugh at it
DeathMonkey245: EVERYONE does that
DeathMonkey245: bah, i have to get off comp
Einsamer Vampire: Do you think you can call me?
DeathMonkey245: yeah ill try
DeathMonkey245: -hugs n kisses- luv you mucho
DeathMonkey245: ill try n call u in a min
Einsamer Vampire: -hugs n kisses- I love you tooo <333
DeathMonkey245 signed off at 9:10:29 PM.