Jul 26, 2004 23:34
If I knew what I know now and could go back in time, so many things would be different. But I guess life would be too easy then. Damn life.
I want so many things changed. If it makes me a bad person, oh well. But 11 months ago I would have done something totally different because it would have made my life 10 x's easier. But like I said, you can't go back in time.
I think you are truly amazing, really. But why do you do this? Are you trying to get rid of me? Just let me know please because I can't go through this too much longer. I have responsibilities, don't you understand? You're making me a bad person. I just sit at home and long for you all day. Talk about you 24/7. It's pathetic really. Especially when I know you probably don't feel the same way. Know and Probably contradict themselves ... I need to make up my mind and figure out what you want. Because I actually have no clue. Ahhhhhh. Help me please. You've made me so happy before, please let me keep this happiness, I beg of you!
I like how people try to translate what I write. But it's tough because everyone looks at it the wrong way ... and always gets it wrong. The way I write throws everyone off.
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