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ok, everyone who knows me, knows that i dont usually curse...well alot anyway, so just let me vent,
GO FUCKING SCREW YOURSELVES, YOU FUCKING ASSHOLES, I HATE EVERYONE!!! YOU ALL SHOULD GO DIE!!!!!!!....have a nice day
...really needed to do that, and its not directed at anyone particular, just so ya know
and i wish that i just had the balls to say everything i really felt, like ya know be a bitch! and not feel bad about saying it later, and i wish i could say everything that i felt and that was on my mind and like really do it too, but....it wont happen, but im not a door mat i know that, but i feel like i just am too forgivening and understanding, making excuses for everything, and i guess sometimes thats good, but i think sometimes i get used, used to a point where i am being walked over and then it gets to a point where i cant say anything back, and just looking over some of my relationships i see things i wish i would of said, i guess i am just to trusting, cause some things i wish i've never said, or just held in, because they just end up screwing me over in the end, but i do wanna be happy, i wanna love everyone, i want everyone to love me, and i want to love life, i want everything to be happy and good, but right now it seems like the people i want to make happy are the people that are pissing me off, and i know that in a few days i'll just get over it and it will be back to normal, but im just pissed, and i wish i could just get some courage, or wisdom on what to do in situations, cause right now, im so confused on what im feeling, or what other people are feeling towards me, i feel like im always apologizing for things i do, or forgiving people without them even apologizing for things that they have done, and it starts to take a toll on me and i wish i wasnt so trusting, and i feel alot of times that i throw myself out there, only to get shot down or like a crappy response back, or that i do so much for people and then i just get like a thx back, but when its my birthday or something thats really important to me i'll just get nothing, and im always making excuses, i need to stop that, i need to be treated well, and i dont feel that way right now, and i hate how even when i'm writing this im apologizing to the person reading this, like if i offend them or if they think im being selfish right now thinking only of myself, but i just need to say this and let it out cause its been kept in too long
go to hell, and in a general note i wish people would just think of other people's feelings before doing something
-me
and i hate how i know that in a few days i'll be regreting this entry, but i hope it just gets out what im feeling at the moment, cause i feel crappy
GO FUCKING SCREW YOURSELVES, YOU FUCKING ASSHOLES, I HATE EVERYONE!!! YOU ALL SHOULD GO DIE!!!!!!!....have a nice day
...really needed to do that, and its not directed at anyone particular, just so ya know
and i wish that i just had the balls to say everything i really felt, like ya know be a bitch! and not feel bad about saying it later, and i wish i could say everything that i felt and that was on my mind and like really do it too, but....it wont happen, but im not a door mat i know that, but i feel like i just am too forgivening and understanding, making excuses for everything, and i guess sometimes thats good, but i think sometimes i get used, used to a point where i am being walked over and then it gets to a point where i cant say anything back, and just looking over some of my relationships i see things i wish i would of said, i guess i am just to trusting, cause some things i wish i've never said, or just held in, because they just end up screwing me over in the end, but i do wanna be happy, i wanna love everyone, i want everyone to love me, and i want to love life, i want everything to be happy and good, but right now it seems like the people i want to make happy are the people that are pissing me off, and i know that in a few days i'll just get over it and it will be back to normal, but im just pissed, and i wish i could just get some courage, or wisdom on what to do in situations, cause right now, im so confused on what im feeling, or what other people are feeling towards me, i feel like im always apologizing for things i do, or forgiving people without them even apologizing for things that they have done, and it starts to take a toll on me and i wish i wasnt so trusting, and i feel alot of times that i throw myself out there, only to get shot down or like a crappy response back, or that i do so much for people and then i just get like a thx back, but when its my birthday or something thats really important to me i'll just get nothing, and im always making excuses, i need to stop that, i need to be treated well, and i dont feel that way right now, and i hate how even when i'm writing this im apologizing to the person reading this, like if i offend them or if they think im being selfish right now thinking only of myself, but i just need to say this and let it out cause its been kept in too long
go to hell, and in a general note i wish people would just think of other people's feelings before doing something
-me
and i hate how i know that in a few days i'll be regreting this entry, but i hope it just gets out what im feeling at the moment, cause i feel crappy