we love without reason, and without reason we hate.
i give up on relationships when things get hard, and it is the worst quality that one could possess. instead of confronting the boys ive liked or just letting them go, i chose to hate them.
clearly, im very extreme with my emotions. in even a day, i go from being absolutely infatuated wtih someone to wanting to never see them again. when it comes to boys, my feelings are irrational.
i think that i "forget about" people because of past situations that have affected me. my feelings get hurt easily, and i dont admit that to alot of people. for fear of getting attacked, i put on a tough front, a cover and a disguse that tells people not to mess with me.
im starting to notice that hating people is such a waste of energy. ive realized that hate is a much stronger word than its understood to be, and i use it so casually that now, i bite my tongue whenever im about to say it. when you say you hate someone, you obviously have an intention of it getting back to them. looking back on all the people ive lost for this reason, makes me want to shoot myself. ive allowed such quality people to just fade out of my life, but im scared that if i let people see my feelings, ill be left alone.
im scared of someone knowing too much.
clearly, im very extreme with my emotions. in even a day, i go from being absolutely infatuated wtih someone to wanting to never see them again. when it comes to boys, my feelings are irrational.
i think that i "forget about" people because of past situations that have affected me. my feelings get hurt easily, and i dont admit that to alot of people. for fear of getting attacked, i put on a tough front, a cover and a disguse that tells people not to mess with me.
im starting to notice that hating people is such a waste of energy. ive realized that hate is a much stronger word than its understood to be, and i use it so casually that now, i bite my tongue whenever im about to say it. when you say you hate someone, you obviously have an intention of it getting back to them. looking back on all the people ive lost for this reason, makes me want to shoot myself. ive allowed such quality people to just fade out of my life, but im scared that if i let people see my feelings, ill be left alone.
im scared of someone knowing too much.