i would change myself if i could.

[_kiss_me_hardd]

 and it's hard you know?  i mean maybe that doesn't justify anything...how could it ever?  but it's hard.
it's hard to juggle it all.

i can't say that i've called you everyday...that would be a lie.  and it's not that i haven't wanted to call everyday, i just haven't had the time.  
i will tell you though, there isn't a day when you aren't thought about.  you are brought up in multiple conversations a day.  and i miss you all the time.
you are my best friend...whether or not i am still yours.
you understand me the way that no one else ever could.

i can't change your mind about me.
i can explain to you, but i don't expect you to understand,..you shouldn't have to.

i love you.
you are my best friend.
and hopefully we can work this out.
hopefully you can forgive me.
and hopefully as i work on this, things will get better.
you are important to me.
i love you.