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i'll lay it out for you. i'll lay it out for you right now. there are so many of them that i can't even keep them all straight. and i feel like this awful, terrible person. and everytime there's a new one who comes in i still see your face and i feel awful. you, you are the only one that actually cares. meanwhile, it isn't you that i want. it isn't any of you. it's you. and you...you want me, but will never be with me. you love me, but will never tell me so. you think i'm pretty, but you've never told me that.
oh you.
it's always you.
it's always you.
i'm sick of parties and the lack of sleep. i'm sick of the negative influence it all has on me.
i cried last night aferwards, but he didn't know.
nor would he have cared.
it's dirty.
and sickening.
disgusting.
and foul.
trade it all in to be happy...don't you want to be happy?
and she's one of those girls she never wanted to be.
and suddenly, i know that it is not easier to be a whore.
oh you.
it's always you.
it's always you.
i'm sick of parties and the lack of sleep. i'm sick of the negative influence it all has on me.
i cried last night aferwards, but he didn't know.
nor would he have cared.
it's dirty.
and sickening.
disgusting.
and foul.
trade it all in to be happy...don't you want to be happy?
and she's one of those girls she never wanted to be.
and suddenly, i know that it is not easier to be a whore.