jigsaw puzzle
i just woke up & i'm very annoyed about it. i hate oatmeal. it's all i have left until next week. i'm going to try to cut out of here tuesday night. i really really hope i can accomplish that goal.
i just am really scared that i'll go home & i won't fit perfectly into the mold of my homelife and i'll be lost. because if you don't fit in here but you don't fit in home then where does one go? where do you go when you have no other place to be?
i just feel like everything isn't going to be as great as i play it up to be. and my friends won't want to see me & my family will irritate me & i'll wish i never left new york city. but at the same time all i want to do is get the fuck out of here.
i'm conflicted. what if no one wants me around?
i just am really scared that i'll go home & i won't fit perfectly into the mold of my homelife and i'll be lost. because if you don't fit in here but you don't fit in home then where does one go? where do you go when you have no other place to be?
i just feel like everything isn't going to be as great as i play it up to be. and my friends won't want to see me & my family will irritate me & i'll wish i never left new york city. but at the same time all i want to do is get the fuck out of here.
i'm conflicted. what if no one wants me around?