what would you say to me now
my mood kind of dissipated today; the more i thought, the lower it sunk.
i'm started to think that maybe i just hallucinated & maybe i just WANTED that to be you. i don't know. this is so stupid. i need to get out of this city. it makes my brain like cotton candy and my heart like an open wound.
did you ever feel totally unaware -- unaware of all of your emotions?
the more i stay here the more i lose track of everything i am.
i am down to: one can of tunafish, one can of green beans, and a whole lot of oatmeal. how can that not depress you?
maybe i'm just incapable of being truly happy. maybe it's in my genes. because i don't know a single family member that is genuinely happy. i don't even know what happy is. if me and happy met each other & shook each other's hands, i wouldn't know it from the next one.
but it's not that i'm sad. i'm just HERE. and i'm not sure what to make of that.
i'm started to think that maybe i just hallucinated & maybe i just WANTED that to be you. i don't know. this is so stupid. i need to get out of this city. it makes my brain like cotton candy and my heart like an open wound.
did you ever feel totally unaware -- unaware of all of your emotions?
the more i stay here the more i lose track of everything i am.
i am down to: one can of tunafish, one can of green beans, and a whole lot of oatmeal. how can that not depress you?
maybe i'm just incapable of being truly happy. maybe it's in my genes. because i don't know a single family member that is genuinely happy. i don't even know what happy is. if me and happy met each other & shook each other's hands, i wouldn't know it from the next one.
but it's not that i'm sad. i'm just HERE. and i'm not sure what to make of that.