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it's been a long time, isn't it? i miss you all <3 miss HP art and fandom, and everything.
so. i'm in a totally post-DH euphoria mode and started some drawings... which, hopefully, will be posted here in the next... weeks days (note to self: less procrastination).
the first one is, actually, a remake of an old art; it's strange, i've always had a feeling that i'd do it after the 7th book, and yes, i was right =)
(you can found a slightest bigger version here. and sorry some color mistake, ahn, my computer's screen is *still* a little messed, yes, after one year or more).
general - and confused - thoughts about deathly hallows: erm. how can i say it? i cannont finish it. ok, i already know almost *everything* that happens, but, but... i simply can't finish. once i do it, everything will be DEFINITELY... over. and, not finishing, tonks's still alive, and so is remus, and severus, and... not only the deaths, of course, but HP is beeing a big part of my life, since 2001/02. i, personally, wish that book 7'd out only in 1 or 2 years. ok, so i pretend the book's not out, it's not resting on my shelf... just waiting to be read, and... and that thing i started to read is just a fic or delirium or... OMG my 3 fav. characters die! i'm still trying to get it. ok, by end of HBP i've already knew snape was a dead man walking, but... it's shocking to know that it REALLY happens. and the way it happens, and everything that follows it. "the prince's tale" is one of the most beautiful and, certainly, the most depressing thing in HP series. period.
i cried and sobbed for 2 hours while/after reading it, and i'm not ashamed to say this. also, i'm not ashamed to tell that i did a little ceremony for snape <3 ah, i dunno, it just felt like the *right thing* to do, light a candle, read the words about his life and courage, and love, and tragedy, and meditate about it in my heart and wish that, even him being a character, he deserves something better in the "other life" (well, at least, in the other life of fics, why not? j.killer rowling herself said this =P in the other's day chat, you know, when she says that, if SS had not joined the dark side, he WOULD have a chance with lily :~)
and last, and to confirm my weirdness =P i'm a such state of jealousy for snape lately! ok, not for him only, but for him and lily. his love/obsession (and btw he seems more heathcliff-y that ever, now) is so strong, and so beautiful, and intense and, that i can't help feeling ANNOYED, seeeeeeriously annoyed by fangirls lusting after him. it feels so wrong, because he belongs to lily, only lily, and WTF are the fangirls thinking? leave them two alone, please!
(ok, really, i better stop here, weirdness enough for one only post ;D)
so. i'm in a totally post-DH euphoria mode and started some drawings... which, hopefully, will be posted here in the next... weeks days (note to self: less procrastination).
the first one is, actually, a remake of an old art; it's strange, i've always had a feeling that i'd do it after the 7th book, and yes, i was right =)
(you can found a slightest bigger version here. and sorry some color mistake, ahn, my computer's screen is *still* a little messed, yes, after one year or more).
general - and confused - thoughts about deathly hallows: erm. how can i say it? i cannont finish it. ok, i already know almost *everything* that happens, but, but... i simply can't finish. once i do it, everything will be DEFINITELY... over. and, not finishing, tonks's still alive, and so is remus, and severus, and... not only the deaths, of course, but HP is beeing a big part of my life, since 2001/02. i, personally, wish that book 7'd out only in 1 or 2 years. ok, so i pretend the book's not out, it's not resting on my shelf... just waiting to be read, and... and that thing i started to read is just a fic or delirium or... OMG my 3 fav. characters die! i'm still trying to get it. ok, by end of HBP i've already knew snape was a dead man walking, but... it's shocking to know that it REALLY happens. and the way it happens, and everything that follows it. "the prince's tale" is one of the most beautiful and, certainly, the most depressing thing in HP series. period.
i cried and sobbed for 2 hours while/after reading it, and i'm not ashamed to say this. also, i'm not ashamed to tell that i did a little ceremony for snape <3 ah, i dunno, it just felt like the *right thing* to do, light a candle, read the words about his life and courage, and love, and tragedy, and meditate about it in my heart and wish that, even him being a character, he deserves something better in the "other life" (well, at least, in the other life of fics, why not? j.killer rowling herself said this =P in the other's day chat, you know, when she says that, if SS had not joined the dark side, he WOULD have a chance with lily :~)
and last, and to confirm my weirdness =P i'm a such state of jealousy for snape lately! ok, not for him only, but for him and lily. his love/obsession (and btw he seems more heathcliff-y that ever, now) is so strong, and so beautiful, and intense and, that i can't help feeling ANNOYED, seeeeeeriously annoyed by fangirls lusting after him. it feels so wrong, because he belongs to lily, only lily, and WTF are the fangirls thinking? leave them two alone, please!
(ok, really, i better stop here, weirdness enough for one only post ;D)