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I went on the biggest roller coaster of emotions tonight. I was happy that we all got together to play tennis. But then Jakub and Saad decide to leave, so I got angry at that. Then Mike Thurston's mom okayed the meteor shower camp out to be held at their house!!! So excited!! Woo, we have a place! Then, as usual, I take pictures of people because I want to remember my life here, and it's the only way I can do it. All I have to say is you made me fell so small and miserable. Grow the FUCK up, it's just a FUCKING picture. AHHHHHHHHHHHerrrrrrghh. I thought we were friends, even for the short time we knew each other but now I know I mean NOTHING to some people. But life goes on and we had a splendid time at Jewel for like two hours. Blasting country music is so carefree, we should do it more often! I felt good, again. People started leaving, and then the time came. I knew I would have to face it in this night, but didn't want it to happen. It was a quick goodbye, and even that I couldn't handle. I tried to hide the tears, and only a few shed. Lola, this is only see you later. Have fun on vacation! Krista, you are right, the four of us will get back together, but those four month are going to be so hard on me. As soon as Krista closed the car door, I just broke down. At one point, I thought I would have to stop the car because my vision was so blurred. I can't even imagine what Tuesday is going to be like. I get home to see I have a few away messages from Mark. He says to check facebook!! Ah hehe! A big old smile came to my face! Thank you Mark! But now as I type this tears drip on the keyboard.

I can't do this.

As my mom quoted it best, "Make new friends, but keep the old."

Keep the "old", means keep the ones that actually are your friends and not some effing fake.