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i called it before it even started. im becoming immune to heartbreak. last time give me 2 weeks. this time give me 1 week, ill be good then. soon ill be taking them day by day...can't be too good on the immune system.
its funny how you can think someone has changed so much and then you realize they are still exactly the same. im losing faith in guys. they all want the same thing. it gets old. you hear the same lines and the same shovinistic characteristics in each one. do i just send out that vibe? the 'give me those pervy dudes that just want some ass!' vibe? because if so, i quit.
everytime i do something its always hanging over my head. its been there the whole time, but i just can't see it. pessimistic, definitely. maybe its just that i dont want it to work.
im the worst possible friend in the world. im sorry john. [if you are reading this] i should've been there front row. i got too caught up in myself to see how much it meant. you've done so much for me and supported me so many times and you couldn't count on me the one time you needed me to. ive done it too much lately and i just want you to know how sorry i am. this will be the first of many apologies since i haven't talked to you yet. words can't explain how sorry i am and how much ive realized that i dont deserve such a great friend. if you hate me for the rest of your life i would completely understand. i heard a recording from cait of your performance, i cried.
its funny how you can think someone has changed so much and then you realize they are still exactly the same. im losing faith in guys. they all want the same thing. it gets old. you hear the same lines and the same shovinistic characteristics in each one. do i just send out that vibe? the 'give me those pervy dudes that just want some ass!' vibe? because if so, i quit.
everytime i do something its always hanging over my head. its been there the whole time, but i just can't see it. pessimistic, definitely. maybe its just that i dont want it to work.
im the worst possible friend in the world. im sorry john. [if you are reading this] i should've been there front row. i got too caught up in myself to see how much it meant. you've done so much for me and supported me so many times and you couldn't count on me the one time you needed me to. ive done it too much lately and i just want you to know how sorry i am. this will be the first of many apologies since i haven't talked to you yet. words can't explain how sorry i am and how much ive realized that i dont deserve such a great friend. if you hate me for the rest of your life i would completely understand. i heard a recording from cait of your performance, i cried.