writing about the week before i turn
I turn 27 next week and at the moment I'm deliberating if I turn back celebrate my 25th year on that day, which will continue for the next three years and then I go through the process of deliberation again.
Hmmm...a pickle indeed.
Typically when my birthday approaches, I go through a somewhat depressive patch. An existential crisis of sorts? (why am I here? what is my purpose in life? why am I still getting laugh lines when I've been so stressed?) Maybe not. I can't explain it but it usually happens.
I don't see this turning up this year though.
It could be the endorphins as a result of going back to actively exercising.
It could be the fact that am so busy that logically there wouldn't be an available time slot to be depressed.
Or it could be that really, i just feel incredibly...truly fortunate.
I saw a lot of changes this year.
Not just in my life.
Some of them happy.
Some of them sad.
But right now am smiling because they happened and i was somehow, at some point - part of it.
Hmmm...okay so maybe a bit existential then... ;p
Hmmm...a pickle indeed.
Typically when my birthday approaches, I go through a somewhat depressive patch. An existential crisis of sorts? (why am I here? what is my purpose in life? why am I still getting laugh lines when I've been so stressed?) Maybe not. I can't explain it but it usually happens.
I don't see this turning up this year though.
It could be the endorphins as a result of going back to actively exercising.
It could be the fact that am so busy that logically there wouldn't be an available time slot to be depressed.
Or it could be that really, i just feel incredibly...truly fortunate.
I saw a lot of changes this year.
Not just in my life.
Some of them happy.
Some of them sad.
But right now am smiling because they happened and i was somehow, at some point - part of it.
Hmmm...okay so maybe a bit existential then... ;p