School, football and my pathetic life, what else?
I’m such a LOSER. Most of it is my fault, but a lot can’t be helped. Like not getting the Japanese course. AGAIN. Like looking like crap every day and feeling crap about being such an ugly disgusting freak (I fight uselessly against it). Or like being so horrible at training that I’m suddenly standing watching everyone else, because they have enough people. Of course… I could have just gone “okay.. let’s switch now.. my turn” instead of just walking off, but I had already fallen into such a hole of depression after seeing that nobody cared to include me in anything that I didn’t want to be included (also it was good to get some ice on my sprained thumb). School officially started today. But lessons were cancelled thanks to the opening, so tomorrow it is! And yay for the 5th year of being another useless and depressed loser who sucks. After I completely screwed up last year it’s time to try again. Basically I have the same courses I had last year.. minus the ones I actually finished(which wasn’t a lot) and a few more added to that. I desperately need to actually get something done and I’m going to take the new approach of doing one thing at a time. Also setting some rules:
1.NO procrastinating. Motto: don’t leave what you can do now for later (unless you have a pile of stuff to do and there’s need to prioritise. Then it’s not actually procrastinating though)
2.STUDY. Seriously. The fifth bloody year at uni, but I still haven't learned to study?
3.Room cleaning saved for the weekend. Every weekend.
4.Computer limit. NO comp if I come home late unless I need to watch a game. And before 12 to bed.
5.FOOD. No rubbish. unless it’s a special occasion Seriously. Eat at your parents’ place. At school (if there are any friends to eat with and normally there aren’t.) Take extra vitamins.
6.Exercise. Unless sick or injured (and while injured: think of the crappy alternative that is better than nothing)
7.Sometimes life sucks. It’s okay to take some time to cry. :)
Of course… It’s not like I’m going to stick to these. Something ends up happening to me, not going my way and it’s bye bye to any sort of structure. If I could only just… START following something. I love routine.. but I have to get it.
On the bright note: Tomorrow is football again. :) Germany against Azerbaijan and Finland against…. The Netherlands. XDD Considering that we got our asses (surprisingly) kicked by Moldova… I won’t be too hopeful. In the WC qualifiers our team DID start off with a pretty good game against Germany… (and still didn’t make it) And now… losing to Moldova… *sighs* I know it’s just one game and anyone can screw up, but ugh…
Anyway… unfortunately the two games overlap. :( So… I don’t know… I’ll try to watch both.. depending on streams. (Finland’s game is on TV of course)
The first games of the qualifiers were easier since they were just after each other. Which was good, so I got to concentrate on both. :)
I watched the press conference with Müller and Klose yesterday , and was amused (okay, I laughed) when Müller quipped that at least that time in the game against Belgium he saw Klose, so he could pass the ball XDD Aww… good that he can be so good-humoured about his miss in Kaiserslautern even though it’s still on his mind (he really did beat himself up about it. :( ) I thought it was also really interesting that he said that he tries to interact with the journalists like with friends.. since that’s how he comes off (IMO). :) And kudos for wanting to give honest and real answers. :) Of course there will be times when one has bad days and can be snippy even with friends. XDD But yeah, I just really love his interviews (I tend to be in a better mood afterwards XD). He’s so good natured and amusing, but still sensible and gives answers with actual context. XDD
And I love how the journalist are often like “Why are you so awesome and how do you deal with being that awesome?” XDD
Anyway.. hope he continues to be awesome and be so relaxed and grounded about it. :)
1.NO procrastinating. Motto: don’t leave what you can do now for later (unless you have a pile of stuff to do and there’s need to prioritise. Then it’s not actually procrastinating though)
2.STUDY. Seriously. The fifth bloody year at uni, but I still haven't learned to study?
3.Room cleaning saved for the weekend. Every weekend.
4.Computer limit. NO comp if I come home late unless I need to watch a game. And before 12 to bed.
5.FOOD. No rubbish. unless it’s a special occasion Seriously. Eat at your parents’ place. At school (if there are any friends to eat with and normally there aren’t.) Take extra vitamins.
6.Exercise. Unless sick or injured (and while injured: think of the crappy alternative that is better than nothing)
7.Sometimes life sucks. It’s okay to take some time to cry. :)
Of course… It’s not like I’m going to stick to these. Something ends up happening to me, not going my way and it’s bye bye to any sort of structure. If I could only just… START following something. I love routine.. but I have to get it.
On the bright note: Tomorrow is football again. :) Germany against Azerbaijan and Finland against…. The Netherlands. XDD Considering that we got our asses (surprisingly) kicked by Moldova… I won’t be too hopeful. In the WC qualifiers our team DID start off with a pretty good game against Germany… (and still didn’t make it) And now… losing to Moldova… *sighs* I know it’s just one game and anyone can screw up, but ugh…
Anyway… unfortunately the two games overlap. :( So… I don’t know… I’ll try to watch both.. depending on streams. (Finland’s game is on TV of course)
The first games of the qualifiers were easier since they were just after each other. Which was good, so I got to concentrate on both. :)
I watched the press conference with Müller and Klose yesterday , and was amused (okay, I laughed) when Müller quipped that at least that time in the game against Belgium he saw Klose, so he could pass the ball XDD Aww… good that he can be so good-humoured about his miss in Kaiserslautern even though it’s still on his mind (he really did beat himself up about it. :( ) I thought it was also really interesting that he said that he tries to interact with the journalists like with friends.. since that’s how he comes off (IMO). :) And kudos for wanting to give honest and real answers. :) Of course there will be times when one has bad days and can be snippy even with friends. XDD But yeah, I just really love his interviews (I tend to be in a better mood afterwards XD). He’s so good natured and amusing, but still sensible and gives answers with actual context. XDD
And I love how the journalist are often like “Why are you so awesome and how do you deal with being that awesome?” XDD
Anyway.. hope he continues to be awesome and be so relaxed and grounded about it. :)