this can't be home... anymore
"where are you? I need you, you still have... still have my heart"
So I took my brother to school, came home and fed the dogs, the cats, and the horses... and now.. here I am.
Tonight, I work at 5... I'm quitting, and this will (hopefully) be my last shift. After work I'm going to go home to michelle and cherish every last second I get to spend with her.
you know.. at first I was stoked about my new job, but then reality hit me and I realized that I'm not going to get to see her very much untill March when she's done with school (she's graduating early(I'm proud of her(I didn't even graduate)). because I'm working full time Day/Nights, while she has school during the day and work at night and on the weekends. she also has her friends on top of that.
God I'm going to miss her so much... it's hard enough right now. I'm used to waking up and seeing her face everyday, and now, I won't have that anymore... not for a long time.
I feel like I'm losing part of myself in this and I'm scared.... really scared.
I'm afraid that somthing might happen... even though I know I shouldn't worry there's always that "WHAT IF". JUST ONCE I WISH I COULD KNOW THAT EVERYTHING WOULD BE OK
soo many temptations... i probably shouldn't list them.. cuz she knows them and knows I worry about it too much. come to think of it... I've got the same ones... but... I'm fully devoted to this relationship and would never do anything to jepordize(sp?) it.
the line "this can't be be home... anymore" has been running through my head for that past few days now.
So I took my brother to school, came home and fed the dogs, the cats, and the horses... and now.. here I am.
Tonight, I work at 5... I'm quitting, and this will (hopefully) be my last shift. After work I'm going to go home to michelle and cherish every last second I get to spend with her.
you know.. at first I was stoked about my new job, but then reality hit me and I realized that I'm not going to get to see her very much untill March when she's done with school (she's graduating early(I'm proud of her(I didn't even graduate)). because I'm working full time Day/Nights, while she has school during the day and work at night and on the weekends. she also has her friends on top of that.
God I'm going to miss her so much... it's hard enough right now. I'm used to waking up and seeing her face everyday, and now, I won't have that anymore... not for a long time.
I feel like I'm losing part of myself in this and I'm scared.... really scared.
I'm afraid that somthing might happen... even though I know I shouldn't worry there's always that "WHAT IF". JUST ONCE I WISH I COULD KNOW THAT EVERYTHING WOULD BE OK
soo many temptations... i probably shouldn't list them.. cuz she knows them and knows I worry about it too much. come to think of it... I've got the same ones... but... I'm fully devoted to this relationship and would never do anything to jepordize(sp?) it.
the line "this can't be be home... anymore" has been running through my head for that past few days now.