AHMIGAD
So, it appears that my sleep schedule has returned to "HOLY CRAP HAYWIRE" status. 4am is my usual brain kill time. So I sleep until 3 or 4 in the afternoon unless someone calls me to wake me up and hang with me.
I am one big fucking ball of missing. Its been an exceedingly long time since I was so eager to get back in someone's arms. It feels good to know that he's thinking the same thing about me, but at the same time this nervous energy is so intense and unrelease-able. There's honestly nothing I can do to shake thoughts of him out of my head. That absence makes the heart grow fonder shit is for real real too, because my affection level has tripled in the past week. GAAAH. All I keep thinking is "I MISS MAH BABEH."
Anyway, the initial feeling of heart melting is over now, so all that "ouch I can feel again" bullshit is dried up. Which is excellent, because the drama going on at home would surely be pissing me off so much more if I was still in that state of mind. Nikki doesn't shut up about how much she hates Jesus, and I haven't got to see Milo yet since I got home cause of all that bollucks. I miss that tall german fuck! Its great hanging out with him and Nikki because his MELLOW cancels out her NUEROSIS.
In todays/christmas's news, there was a massive present spill at the nice gramma's house. Grampa's favorite holiday was christmas, so Gramma spent all her free time from thanksgiving on christmas shopping so she wouldn't have to be in the house. The payload for us little chitlins was MASSIVE. The pile took up half the living room and into the dining room.
Its getting way easier as an adult to sit through younger siblings getting more presents than me. I remember I used to be genuinely offended when I got less, but now I find that hideous jealousy has faded down to the occassional spark. More and more I'm getting concerned like my gramma must be dealing cocaine to have enough money for all these gifts she showers us with. And if she doesn't, maybe she should take it up before she goes bankrupt.
As for the adventure to the evil gramma's, that's becoming more tolerable. Mostly because I can watch the woman slowly degrade into senility. It takes the sting out of a lot of horrible things she's done, knowing that her brain is rotting from the inside. And, as always, everyone is obsessed with my aunt and uncle's kid. Ok, she's cute, but she's not really worth all the attention she gets. Honestly she hasn't shown that much personality. And she doesn't like me because I'm certain she can sense my weirdness. Haha, oh well. I'm sure she'll grow up like every other blonde.
I'm... Posting song lyrics, cause me and Chris <3 this song... The biffy clyro cover, not the rihanna version.
You had my heart
and we'll never be world apart
Maybe in magazines
but you'll still be my star
Baby cause in the Dark
You can see shiny Cars
And that's when you need me there
With you I'll always share
Because
[CHORUS]
When the sun shines
We’ll shine together
Told you I'll be here forever
Said I'll always be your friend
Took an oath
I'mma stick it out 'till the end
Now that it's raining more than ever
Know that we still have each other
You can stand under my Umbrella
You can stand under my Umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(ella ella eh eh eh eh eh eh)
[VERSE 2]
These fancy things,
will never come in between
You're part of my entity
Here for Infinity
When the war has took it's part
When the world has dealt it's cards
If the hand is hard
Together we'll mend your heart
Because ...
[CHORUS]
When the sun shines
We'll shine together
Told you I'll be here forever
Said I'll always be your friend
Took an oath
I'mma stick it out 'till the end
Now that it's raining more than ever
Know that we still have each other
You can stand under my Umbrella
You can stand under my Umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(ella ella eh eh eh eh eh eh)
[BRIDGE]
You can run into my Arms
It's okay don't be alarmed
(Come into Me)
(There's no distance in between our love)
So Gonna let the rain pour
I'll be all you need and more
When the sun shines
We'll shine together
Told you I'll be here forever
Said I'll always be your friend
Took an oath
I'mma stick it out 'till the end
Now that it's raining more than ever
Know that we still have each other
You can stand under my Umbrella
You can stand under my Umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(ella ella eh eh eh eh eh eh)
I am one big fucking ball of missing. Its been an exceedingly long time since I was so eager to get back in someone's arms. It feels good to know that he's thinking the same thing about me, but at the same time this nervous energy is so intense and unrelease-able. There's honestly nothing I can do to shake thoughts of him out of my head. That absence makes the heart grow fonder shit is for real real too, because my affection level has tripled in the past week. GAAAH. All I keep thinking is "I MISS MAH BABEH."
Anyway, the initial feeling of heart melting is over now, so all that "ouch I can feel again" bullshit is dried up. Which is excellent, because the drama going on at home would surely be pissing me off so much more if I was still in that state of mind. Nikki doesn't shut up about how much she hates Jesus, and I haven't got to see Milo yet since I got home cause of all that bollucks. I miss that tall german fuck! Its great hanging out with him and Nikki because his MELLOW cancels out her NUEROSIS.
In todays/christmas's news, there was a massive present spill at the nice gramma's house. Grampa's favorite holiday was christmas, so Gramma spent all her free time from thanksgiving on christmas shopping so she wouldn't have to be in the house. The payload for us little chitlins was MASSIVE. The pile took up half the living room and into the dining room.
Its getting way easier as an adult to sit through younger siblings getting more presents than me. I remember I used to be genuinely offended when I got less, but now I find that hideous jealousy has faded down to the occassional spark. More and more I'm getting concerned like my gramma must be dealing cocaine to have enough money for all these gifts she showers us with. And if she doesn't, maybe she should take it up before she goes bankrupt.
As for the adventure to the evil gramma's, that's becoming more tolerable. Mostly because I can watch the woman slowly degrade into senility. It takes the sting out of a lot of horrible things she's done, knowing that her brain is rotting from the inside. And, as always, everyone is obsessed with my aunt and uncle's kid. Ok, she's cute, but she's not really worth all the attention she gets. Honestly she hasn't shown that much personality. And she doesn't like me because I'm certain she can sense my weirdness. Haha, oh well. I'm sure she'll grow up like every other blonde.
I'm... Posting song lyrics, cause me and Chris <3 this song... The biffy clyro cover, not the rihanna version.
You had my heart
and we'll never be world apart
Maybe in magazines
but you'll still be my star
Baby cause in the Dark
You can see shiny Cars
And that's when you need me there
With you I'll always share
Because
[CHORUS]
When the sun shines
We’ll shine together
Told you I'll be here forever
Said I'll always be your friend
Took an oath
I'mma stick it out 'till the end
Now that it's raining more than ever
Know that we still have each other
You can stand under my Umbrella
You can stand under my Umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(ella ella eh eh eh eh eh eh)
[VERSE 2]
These fancy things,
will never come in between
You're part of my entity
Here for Infinity
When the war has took it's part
When the world has dealt it's cards
If the hand is hard
Together we'll mend your heart
Because ...
[CHORUS]
When the sun shines
We'll shine together
Told you I'll be here forever
Said I'll always be your friend
Took an oath
I'mma stick it out 'till the end
Now that it's raining more than ever
Know that we still have each other
You can stand under my Umbrella
You can stand under my Umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(ella ella eh eh eh eh eh eh)
[BRIDGE]
You can run into my Arms
It's okay don't be alarmed
(Come into Me)
(There's no distance in between our love)
So Gonna let the rain pour
I'll be all you need and more
When the sun shines
We'll shine together
Told you I'll be here forever
Said I'll always be your friend
Took an oath
I'mma stick it out 'till the end
Now that it's raining more than ever
Know that we still have each other
You can stand under my Umbrella
You can stand under my Umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(ella ella eh eh eh eh eh eh)