Weird place.
My head is in a really weird place right now. I know I'm happy, but I can feel all these frozen chunks of my emotions thawing and its heinously painful. Like the scars on my heart are peeling off by the scabs. You know it hurts, but at the end it doesn't itch anymore, and there's only that faint line of reminder.
Funny thing is, Chris says he feels the same way about sort of coming to terms with affection and his own feelings again. Its really refreshing to say something that I thought only I was feeling and have someone agree with it dispite how out there the reference is.
Figures gerdy would choose to start fucking with me again once all this stuff comes up. Moving cold spots be damned. Anyway.
I'm trying really hard to just go with the flow and not think about the past or future, or barely even the present. I'm terrified that my brand of clairvoyance is going to interfere with something good for me. At least I know that much, that it is going to be good for me.
He gives me goosebumps. You know how long its been since I got goosebumps from being touched? About seven years. That's not something I can disregard. I'm begging the universe that this isn't just strong eros, that our comradere will morph into something connected in the mind as much as the body. I can feel it there already just wait for me to give in, trust, and dive. And you know what? I think I might do just that.
Funny thing is, Chris says he feels the same way about sort of coming to terms with affection and his own feelings again. Its really refreshing to say something that I thought only I was feeling and have someone agree with it dispite how out there the reference is.
Figures gerdy would choose to start fucking with me again once all this stuff comes up. Moving cold spots be damned. Anyway.
I'm trying really hard to just go with the flow and not think about the past or future, or barely even the present. I'm terrified that my brand of clairvoyance is going to interfere with something good for me. At least I know that much, that it is going to be good for me.
He gives me goosebumps. You know how long its been since I got goosebumps from being touched? About seven years. That's not something I can disregard. I'm begging the universe that this isn't just strong eros, that our comradere will morph into something connected in the mind as much as the body. I can feel it there already just wait for me to give in, trust, and dive. And you know what? I think I might do just that.