curiosita
went to "outerwear camp" for Coast Mtn. was very informative... my mind is a jumble of "polyeurothanes" and "hydrophobic/hydrophilic molecules" or "laminates versus coatins" or "500 down fill versus 600 down fill" or "DWR 50/80" and all sorts of crazy technologies that go into "outerwear". its amazing, we no longer wear "just jackets"
anyhoo, I've seen the light. cotton is evil :P its all about the layering system...
otherwise somethign odd sparked my curiosity, and I probly look crazy for wondering this but what is it that makes water bead a certain way on this particular type of grass. I dont know how to phrase it or where to even begin to find my answer, but i want to know the scientific explanation... down to the molecular level. I dunno.
um, I also have a kind of respect/fascination of spiders now. trying to get rid of my silly paranoia. i spent a while watching a bunch of them one night, it was kind of interesting.
find myself questioning ...myself. my religion, if I still consider myself to "follow" it? what I believe in, how I want to grow: emotionally, physically, spiritually, religiously? there are so many different religions but they all say pretty much the same things. I still believe in a higher power/God and demons/evil, but not so much in the "Church" and some of its teachigns. specifically tho, I'm questioning some of my basis on Christianity, and some things I followed. I want to grow as a person, keep my morals but cast all pre-conceived notions aside and learn. Learn about life, morals, religion, people, myself... everything! dont know how to describe it. but my heart is open, my soul is open... teach me, grow with me... I dont know whether this is a prayer or statement. but, its what I feel... as best as i can describe with words anyways.
I'm going to try to face my fears and take responsibility for my mistakes, be open minded and try not to scorn others. To love life and live it fully, to try and grow as a person, in every aspect. without forgetting who I am and behaving recklessly, I want to be enlightened. sometimes I just want to run away to some monastery somewhere and live in solitude. to just spend time with one of the monks or priests and just question everything, learn, figure things out. I dunno where im going with this, i just felt i had to get it out before I forget. :)
anyhoo, I've seen the light. cotton is evil :P its all about the layering system...
otherwise somethign odd sparked my curiosity, and I probly look crazy for wondering this but what is it that makes water bead a certain way on this particular type of grass. I dont know how to phrase it or where to even begin to find my answer, but i want to know the scientific explanation... down to the molecular level. I dunno.
um, I also have a kind of respect/fascination of spiders now. trying to get rid of my silly paranoia. i spent a while watching a bunch of them one night, it was kind of interesting.
find myself questioning ...myself. my religion, if I still consider myself to "follow" it? what I believe in, how I want to grow: emotionally, physically, spiritually, religiously? there are so many different religions but they all say pretty much the same things. I still believe in a higher power/God and demons/evil, but not so much in the "Church" and some of its teachigns. specifically tho, I'm questioning some of my basis on Christianity, and some things I followed. I want to grow as a person, keep my morals but cast all pre-conceived notions aside and learn. Learn about life, morals, religion, people, myself... everything! dont know how to describe it. but my heart is open, my soul is open... teach me, grow with me... I dont know whether this is a prayer or statement. but, its what I feel... as best as i can describe with words anyways.
I'm going to try to face my fears and take responsibility for my mistakes, be open minded and try not to scorn others. To love life and live it fully, to try and grow as a person, in every aspect. without forgetting who I am and behaving recklessly, I want to be enlightened. sometimes I just want to run away to some monastery somewhere and live in solitude. to just spend time with one of the monks or priests and just question everything, learn, figure things out. I dunno where im going with this, i just felt i had to get it out before I forget. :)