homesick
So I could have guessed that I would be homesick again. I wasn't first semester last year... I was second semester... and here I am again. Everyone went home this weekend. I mean like all of my friends on my floor and other friends. The two that are here - one is w/ her bf and the other is always just everywhere with everyone. I went running w/ the second one earlier and then ate dinner w/ a girl that was in my peer group and her friends for dinner because no one was here. I dont know anyone on my floor besides the girls I chose my room with. I miss the girls from my dorm last year a lot. They're pretty much everywhere on campus. So anyway I call my mom...
She knows I'm upset and my dad was going to bed soon so she put me on the phone with my dad and lets just say he's not the best at cheering ppl up. He tells me to turn on some baseball game that isn't the Phillies and the Phillies are pretty much the only team I'll watch. So then he tells me to just go to bed soon so I can wake up and run and get a big breakfast. Not the best of help. He gives the phone back to my mom and she says my Aunt is on the house phone so she'll call me back. Well the next call I get is from my Aunt. So then I'm really upset and really crying because I called my mom for a reason and now I'm talking to my Aunt that is only an hour away. She called to tell me that she could come pick me up... its 9:30 at night. Clearly that would not solve much. Then she keeps telling me that this isn't like me and if I ever need anyone to talk to I can call her. I calm down and call my mom back. It went right to her voicemail so I waited for her to call me back. It was probably the worst convo. I have ever had with her. She was like well you're making me feel bad, all because you're bored. Well sorry I called you to vent and complain and she just tells me that being bored is a part of life. Well thanks for making me feel better. Then she said she felt bad again and told me to stop feeling sorry for myself. Why did I even call her? It accomplished nothing. I've been bored all day and not motivated to do anything. I didn't think that everyone would go home the first weekend of school. I'm just a little lonely but I'll get over it. It just really sucks that my mom has no idea where I'm coming from on this. Clearly. Oh, well... the weekends can only get better than this one. Thats all for now...
She knows I'm upset and my dad was going to bed soon so she put me on the phone with my dad and lets just say he's not the best at cheering ppl up. He tells me to turn on some baseball game that isn't the Phillies and the Phillies are pretty much the only team I'll watch. So then he tells me to just go to bed soon so I can wake up and run and get a big breakfast. Not the best of help. He gives the phone back to my mom and she says my Aunt is on the house phone so she'll call me back. Well the next call I get is from my Aunt. So then I'm really upset and really crying because I called my mom for a reason and now I'm talking to my Aunt that is only an hour away. She called to tell me that she could come pick me up... its 9:30 at night. Clearly that would not solve much. Then she keeps telling me that this isn't like me and if I ever need anyone to talk to I can call her. I calm down and call my mom back. It went right to her voicemail so I waited for her to call me back. It was probably the worst convo. I have ever had with her. She was like well you're making me feel bad, all because you're bored. Well sorry I called you to vent and complain and she just tells me that being bored is a part of life. Well thanks for making me feel better. Then she said she felt bad again and told me to stop feeling sorry for myself. Why did I even call her? It accomplished nothing. I've been bored all day and not motivated to do anything. I didn't think that everyone would go home the first weekend of school. I'm just a little lonely but I'll get over it. It just really sucks that my mom has no idea where I'm coming from on this. Clearly. Oh, well... the weekends can only get better than this one. Thats all for now...