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Wow, so it has been a while...a long time. Well Lets see, me and Ricky are still going out...Long and strong. I Love him with all my heart. He is my everything. My supports, I can tell him anything. Which is kinda why I'm on here. Ok, so last night I spent the night at Megan's. And well, me and Megan haven't been the same since school got out. Well the night school got out. So Kaley was having a party. I got Ricky to go which was cool. So me and Ricky went and saw a movie before the party. It was cute, we saw over the hedge. But yeah, we came home and went to Kaley's. But Kaley had to leave so Megan, Ricky and I went back to my house for a little bit. Somewhere around then Megan said that Brittany Hicks was mad at her and she might not feel right spending the night over there. Well I told her she is welcome at my house. I most likely wasn't gonna stay the night cuz I didn't want to drink, and my non drinking buddy, Ricky, was gonna leave me early. So we are there and Ricky gets really quiet and shit. And I was worried that it was my fault. And like he explained to me that he didn't think that not wanting to drink was a good enough reason not to drink. And that he felt bad that I wasn't drinking only cuz of him. And I toldhim that yes, he is my main reason not to drink. But I also didn't like the hangovers, and making a fool of myself, and all that shit. But likeI hated how quiet he was. But yeah, so then he left. And I actually started to have some fun, I wasn't worring about Ricky being upset as much. And then A while later megan is like about to pass out and she tells me that she wants to go home. I said ok...I really didn't want to leave the party. But she is like my bestfriend, so I left. So we are heading home and she is telling me how much she likes me brother. And she says she loves him, but then said she doesn't. As we get closer to my house I realize that Ned and some of his friends are standing outside talking. I told Megan this and she makes me walk over to them. She says hey while I am giving Ned dirty looks. I think I made Biggy Jake hug me. I really needed a hug. But them as we walk away I call Ned an asshole. (he had hit on Brittany Baker earlier). And then we go inside. I get Megan to take a shower, and while she is doing that, I wrote my parents a note, Picked out her PJs. And all that shit, thinking we would go straight to bed. Well Megan says she wants to go talk to Ned. We walk outside and realize that they all left. And then The lights in Ned's car turns on. So me and Megan go get in Ned's car. I'm still pissed that he hit off Brittany and tried to get her to Cheat on him. So yeah, then Megan gets Ned to go inside. He sits on the chair and then Megan convinces him to go to bed. So she gets him in bed, I walk by and she says she is getting water for ned. I was like ok, and I sat in my room. Then I hear Megan talking to Ned and she tells him that she really likes him. Ned says something....I don't rmemeber. Then Megan asks if she can kiss him. I knew something bad was gonna happen. So yeah, I walk away. Then I came back and I hear Megan saying no. I hear more kissing. Then I walk away again. When she walked in there of when she was showering I texted Ricky and said I felt like I was gonna cry. So then the 2nd time I walked in hearing the No's I texted Ricky saying I wanted to talk to him, I needed to talk to him. But was afraid to wake him up. SO then I walk in again and I hear her say no a few more times, and I walk by and her head is near he groin. So I start to really freak out. Then I hear my brother say...."yeah baby yeah" I am completely freaking about now. I walk outfront and I called Ricky. He answers and just hearing his voice. I dunno he asked what was up and I started babeling and crying and shit. It sucked. So Ricky tells me to stop talking and calms me down. I kinda quit crying and I explain so he can understand what is going on...which is all explained above. I'm not sure what to do...Do I walk in and stop in...what do I do. I was confused. I felt like puking, it was horrible. Right, so he calms me down. But then I tell him to switch to his house phone so I stop wasting his minutes. So as he does that...I puke. So we get back on the phone and I am asking him what to do. And then Megan walks out the frint door. I just watch her walk towards me. I don't even know what to say. I whisper to Ricky that she is coming towards me. She says that she couldn't find me and she wants to go to bed. I know I can't go to bed now, I need to calm down more. So I get her in bed and she asks me to talk to her till she falls asleep. I look at her, and say no. She asks why, I said, "you just gave my brother head, I can't talk to you" And then she says she didn't. And I told her that she did and I start to walk away and she starts to cry. I keep walking. SO I go online and listen to music. Ricky gets me to smile and we are talking. I Love him, he helped me sooo much. So them a while later Megan comes out to talk to me. I look at her and keep playing on the computer. Then she falls to the ground crying. I'm asking Ricky what to do. But then she starts having an asma attack. Me being me, I walk over next to her and try and calm her down. She clams down and we talk a bit. Then I get her to go to bed. So I talk to her and Ricky. Then I tell her I will be right back. I go and talk to Ricky a bit longer. So I tell him he can go, but then I said nevermind and I make he talk to me while I'm getting ready so he can be the last voice I hear before I go to sleep. SO I get off the phone and turn over to go to sleep and Megan talks to me. So then me and Megan talk till like 5 am. And then yeah, we wake up at like 6:30 and 7. She had a really bad hangover. I laughed at her. I felt like she deserved it. Now I hear that my brother kinda forced her into it. Like yeah...So I got pissed at my brother for that. And now he thinks I hate him, which kills me. Cuz I Love him so much, I'm just dissapointed in him. But right the point of this was I want to explain a dream to Ricky and I figured if I write it. It will come mroe clear. So in this dream I'm in this hotel type thing. And Ricky is there. And he gets really drunk, like megan and ned was. And then there is this gurl. I want to say she was kinda tall, pretty, long blondeish hair, Skinny. And yeah she is drunk too. So I am walking around and I know Ricky is around there. And I have this feeling that he cheated on me. I keep thinking that if he has cheated on me. I HAVE to break up with him, No matter how hard it is. I am starting to cry at the thoguht. So I get to this closet and open its door. There is Ricky and this gurl. She are really close and Ricky's fly was down. And like I just knew they had done something. And it reminded me of Megan and Ned. Not completely sute why but it did. SO I ran around freaking out that I need to find out if he really did chea. And if he did that me and him are over. But I am like runnign from him cuz I dn't wanna break up with him. Then the next dream, I can't really remember it...I remember some of it. Part of it is that I'm in this bathroom about to wash my hands. And this fat kid calls me either fat or ugly...or something offensive. Justin is standing next to him and say "oooooo" And I look at him. And start kicking him in the balls and stomach. Then I stop and look at him. He is in pain, then he looks up and me. I slap him in the face twice. And this slap...a great slap. You could hear how good it was....Right. Then I go back and wash my hands. But yeah, this whole time I am like crying. And well I know something else happened but I can't think of it...Hmmmm.I mean I think I was in this big party room. But it had like doors all around it. I'm not sure how to explain it. but I'm really tired and ave to wake up early tomarrow. So if I remember. i will update a bit more...