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Well, I finally got to hang out with Ricky. It has been like almost a freakin month. So it was fun. I brought him to Hooters. He walked in and what he saw how short the girls shorts were, he looked at me and said "You wanna work here?" It was funny. But yeah, I wanted him to try the wings, but he didn't. But I don't remember what he got. I got the soup Brittany got when she came to Hooters with me. It was good, but I didn't eat a lot and Ricky looked at me funny. And then he asked my mom if I always eat so little. She said she wasn't sure. I dunno, when ever I am with him I just don't feel like eating. I dunno, it is weird. But not bad. I'm not sure how to describe it. But yeah, so tonight was fun. But after Hooters we went to the movies. We saw...The Ringer. That was a funny movie. Deffinately making fun of the mentally challanged. But still funny. Tomorrow I'm gonna babysit and I think that is it. I want to hang out with Brizz, but I bet she is gonna be doing something. But I dunno.
But life has been interesting lately. I have been really stressed. I don't even know why. Like my parents are bothering the hell out of me. I strongly dislike them at this moment. And like it was sad. Like last night I was super stressed. And pissed that my mom wouldn't leave me and Ricky alone. So like I almost cried before Ricky called me. But then hearing his voice made me happy. But then he asked me about something to do with my parents. I told him, and then I just started to cry. Then something happened and he said he would be right back. Well he came back and said something. And when I replied, he asked if I was ok. I told him that I was fine, and then he asked if I was crying. I told him I wasn't. I didn't want him knowing that I was crying. Then he asked if I promised. I told him that I did. But then my mom knocked on the door. And she made me get off the phone. It really sucked, and then it hit me that I felt bad that I lied to Ricky. I told him I wasn't crying when I actually was. And I have thought about it all today. And I have wondered what to do. And I just now figured it out. I need to tell him, I mean it will bother me until he knows that I lied. I dunno, I can't lied to certain ppl. Ricky being one of those people. But yeah, I ended up crying myself to sleep. I haven't done that in sooo long. It sucked. But yeah, I really have no clue what else to write. I mean nothing really interesting happened. But I really want to get on Birth Control. I mean, nothing too interesting happened tonight...sadly... But I mean, I know something will happen again, and I don't want a chance of being pregnant at 16. There is no way I could deal with that. I have already been freaked out that I was. And maybe it is just cuz I freak out over littles things. But still, I don't want to have to worry about that. I can't deal with anymore stress...