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Dammit. I fucking hate my life and sister. I hope she fucking gets her ass kicked real good one day. She treats my mom like shit. I cant believe what i just heard. Shes always starting problems. Apparently last night, my moms boyfriend was over and my sister decided to show his son and his sons friends how to burn shit down and lighter tricks. Then one of the boys she was showing it too went back to his house and burnt shit down and his parents called my moms boyfriend and started cursing at him and he flipped out and went over to the guys house and started fighting, then he called my mom and said something to her that made her cry. She ran in my sisters room and started yelling, saying " Dont you ever show Brandon or his friends anything ever again, do you hear me?!" and my sister started yelling and started saying " Dont yell at me! I will hurt you bitch! I didnt tell Brandon Shit!" And my mom was crying and yelling and told her fine you wont be here for long. and she said she dosent want to be here anyway. So my mom grabbed the phone and ran outside, i dont know who she was going to call but my sister started tearing up her room. And i feel soo bad because i see the big picture and i see how my sister treats my mom in front of people and cant imagine how embarrassing it must be because every time she does it, my moms boyfriend gets mad at my mom for not punishing her. And its not that she dosnt punish her, its that she dosnt listen. And i feel so bad because my moms boyfriend is soo mean to her and i used to be and my sister still is and i feel horible. i dont know whar i should do. i hate myself and i hate the fact that i couldnt see how much my mom loved me and was just trying to help me. i feel bad because part of the reason my sisters like that is because shes seen me act that way when i get mad and get into fights so its like my problem too. i dont know what to do. fuck.