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sooo...long time,no update, i know.
boston was awsome, i saw two prostectomies(sp), and a lithotripsy...tey were awsome, i also learned how to take blood, that was fun, and i made somee really cool friends.
i had to work today which was lame cause i was dyinig the whole time from my migriane...but thats o.k. cause imgetting my CT scan on tuesday...finally
i went to greg's tonight after work...i didnt know it was possible to love someone as much as i love him...and everytime i think about him leaving or breaking my heart i feel like crying, but even when i think about how much ilove him i think about crying...and i know itsnont right to think about the 'would if's', but would if, when he goes into the army he wantsto break up...would if he goes to a party and decides to get effed up, would if he doesnt feel the same way, evenifits right now...he says he loves me and hee means it, but so do all of them dont they.
im just worried it's going to come to some kind of aburpt ending and i wontbe ready for it...inever will be ready for an endingto us...and im glad i am not facing that rightnow, cause i know i would not be able to handle it.
would if i fell too hard?...i love him
boston was awsome, i saw two prostectomies(sp), and a lithotripsy...tey were awsome, i also learned how to take blood, that was fun, and i made somee really cool friends.
i had to work today which was lame cause i was dyinig the whole time from my migriane...but thats o.k. cause imgetting my CT scan on tuesday...finally
i went to greg's tonight after work...i didnt know it was possible to love someone as much as i love him...and everytime i think about him leaving or breaking my heart i feel like crying, but even when i think about how much ilove him i think about crying...and i know itsnont right to think about the 'would if's', but would if, when he goes into the army he wantsto break up...would if he goes to a party and decides to get effed up, would if he doesnt feel the same way, evenifits right now...he says he loves me and hee means it, but so do all of them dont they.
im just worried it's going to come to some kind of aburpt ending and i wontbe ready for it...inever will be ready for an endingto us...and im glad i am not facing that rightnow, cause i know i would not be able to handle it.
would if i fell too hard?...i love him