STRESSFUL SITUATION
I am at a very stressful spot right now...I don't know what to do or say. I want to DIE !!!!!!!!!!! my hopes fell to fast.....I really want to get myself to move to NEW YORK CITY but it seems to be too hard for me to get into. I called places for studios...some places already have none available and some places are raising up the prices. Well I talked to some of the places and the lady told me that I would need to have GOOD CREDIT, and WORKING IN NYC hearing that you need good credit made me fall too fast cause I know I have no credit to even save me......it a while to build good credit. I wanted to cry due to all this fustration. My aunty is right she don't think I can get here this soon, she told me it takes planning and process. But for me so stuburn and not listen I want to go my own way....but it never takes me anywhere, I always end up in the pits. I should have sticked with DELAWARE from the start....even tho I my X is their.....all I care is getting somewhere so I can see how I can live life alone and be INDEPENDANT. IF I can't find a place for me in NY worse comes to worse I will go to DELAWARE which I don't want to...!!!
Moving is not a easy task to explore, its more on the stressful side.
My friends up in NY can only do so much for me......*sigh* I really am so lost right now I feel like falling in world and curl up in a dark corner
I can't stay here in HAWAII no longer....I hate backing up my move date its so irritating and lame!!!!
Im just gonna plan and move make my own path....with out my parents....and family!!!! IF I don't succeed I will keep going. Once I am far away from HOME then I will know at least I know I made my first move. Thats all I want...I wanna work and save up money for my SCHOOLING .
Till then I will keep looking.....and calling....my time is ticking by the seconds....I have to get my move on!!!!!!!!
till then
PEACE
Moving is not a easy task to explore, its more on the stressful side.
My friends up in NY can only do so much for me......*sigh* I really am so lost right now I feel like falling in world and curl up in a dark corner
I can't stay here in HAWAII no longer....I hate backing up my move date its so irritating and lame!!!!
Im just gonna plan and move make my own path....with out my parents....and family!!!! IF I don't succeed I will keep going. Once I am far away from HOME then I will know at least I know I made my first move. Thats all I want...I wanna work and save up money for my SCHOOLING .
Till then I will keep looking.....and calling....my time is ticking by the seconds....I have to get my move on!!!!!!!!
till then
PEACE