it's been a while...
Today has been a really rough day, from beginning to end...I'm so ready for it to be over.
Well after being on the river all day Saturday and getting practically no sleep, I was absolutely dead this morning. Dont get me wrong though, im so glad I went on that trip, i had an AWESOME time and bonded with alot of the girls which is gonna be good when Maywood comes (which by the way is in 6!!!! days!) Anyway..waking up today was so hard, my dad woke me up asking to go to church with him, i told him there was no way so he ended up not going b/c he didnt want to go by himself, kinda made me feel bad. then he woke me up again at around 2 asking if id go eat w/ him and i decided i would since i didnt go to church w/ him..its the least i could do. while were walking to the car he tells me he's invited my mom to come along to...i stop walking completely and just stare at him. I know I should prob. be more understanding about the situation but its ilke I dont know what to do! I don't want mymom around anymore...I hate being in her presence..hate it. And my dad is giving me mixed signals too, he tells me one minute that he absolutely hates the woman and wishes she would die..then the next he's feeling sorry for her. But i sucked it up and went anyway..it wasn't TOO akward, wasn't the best lunch of my life but w/e, i managed. Then my mom told me to leave so that her and my dad would 'talk' about everything so i was ilke my pleasure and went out to my car. While I was sitting there, some mexican dude was on his break and come up to my car and starting asking me questoins like, hola moma seita (sp?) whats your name? I said uhm..Judeth? and he said ah, how old you? and i said excuse me? and he said how old you?? and i said how old am i?? and he said si si and i said im 16..then i was like yea, i have to go though, bbye. then I drove around Camino Real's parking lot.. nice. Finally, my parents came out and we had to switch cars cuz i didnt want to take my car to t'town, so we switched and then my mom asked my dad to come over there and she freakin kissed him, or he kissed her, actually and yeah...that REALLY, really pissed me off. just talking about it pisses me off even more. in fact, im not gonna talk about it..
Just so many things have gotten to me today, little things. I got pretty upset with Brian today, too. I wont get into that but yea..he made me really upset. not mad..just, i dunno. It was stupid and I shouldn't have, but im over it..as always. He's the only guy who can actually make me feel bad when I get mad at him. like w/ andrew..when i got mad at him there was no turning back, i was pissed and the only way to fix it was if he came adn calmed me down and told me he was sorry. but w/ brian, i feel like its always my fault and im always teh one overreacting, which usually is always true..but still. It's weird..
I'm sitting in the computer lab at the Bama Campus (roll tide)...its pretty cool. I LOVE Tuscaloosa, i mean absolutely love it. I would move here in a heartbeat, no joke. Earlier, when wbe got here, I had 2 guys come up to me asking my number haha, then i told um i was 16 and they freaked out i wa ilk yeah, sorry. haha. it was pretty funny. I'm def. going to school here...ah, i can't wait. sept 3 baby..kick off! and ill be in the student section at the game with my brother!!! :) yay for football season. Anyway, im gonna go, i'll try to do better on updating, its hard..i'm too obsessed w/ my myspace now haha. talk to yall later..
Well after being on the river all day Saturday and getting practically no sleep, I was absolutely dead this morning. Dont get me wrong though, im so glad I went on that trip, i had an AWESOME time and bonded with alot of the girls which is gonna be good when Maywood comes (which by the way is in 6!!!! days!) Anyway..waking up today was so hard, my dad woke me up asking to go to church with him, i told him there was no way so he ended up not going b/c he didnt want to go by himself, kinda made me feel bad. then he woke me up again at around 2 asking if id go eat w/ him and i decided i would since i didnt go to church w/ him..its the least i could do. while were walking to the car he tells me he's invited my mom to come along to...i stop walking completely and just stare at him. I know I should prob. be more understanding about the situation but its ilke I dont know what to do! I don't want mymom around anymore...I hate being in her presence..hate it. And my dad is giving me mixed signals too, he tells me one minute that he absolutely hates the woman and wishes she would die..then the next he's feeling sorry for her. But i sucked it up and went anyway..it wasn't TOO akward, wasn't the best lunch of my life but w/e, i managed. Then my mom told me to leave so that her and my dad would 'talk' about everything so i was ilke my pleasure and went out to my car. While I was sitting there, some mexican dude was on his break and come up to my car and starting asking me questoins like, hola moma seita (sp?) whats your name? I said uhm..Judeth? and he said ah, how old you? and i said excuse me? and he said how old you?? and i said how old am i?? and he said si si and i said im 16..then i was like yea, i have to go though, bbye. then I drove around Camino Real's parking lot.. nice. Finally, my parents came out and we had to switch cars cuz i didnt want to take my car to t'town, so we switched and then my mom asked my dad to come over there and she freakin kissed him, or he kissed her, actually and yeah...that REALLY, really pissed me off. just talking about it pisses me off even more. in fact, im not gonna talk about it..
Just so many things have gotten to me today, little things. I got pretty upset with Brian today, too. I wont get into that but yea..he made me really upset. not mad..just, i dunno. It was stupid and I shouldn't have, but im over it..as always. He's the only guy who can actually make me feel bad when I get mad at him. like w/ andrew..when i got mad at him there was no turning back, i was pissed and the only way to fix it was if he came adn calmed me down and told me he was sorry. but w/ brian, i feel like its always my fault and im always teh one overreacting, which usually is always true..but still. It's weird..
I'm sitting in the computer lab at the Bama Campus (roll tide)...its pretty cool. I LOVE Tuscaloosa, i mean absolutely love it. I would move here in a heartbeat, no joke. Earlier, when wbe got here, I had 2 guys come up to me asking my number haha, then i told um i was 16 and they freaked out i wa ilk yeah, sorry. haha. it was pretty funny. I'm def. going to school here...ah, i can't wait. sept 3 baby..kick off! and ill be in the student section at the game with my brother!!! :) yay for football season. Anyway, im gonna go, i'll try to do better on updating, its hard..i'm too obsessed w/ my myspace now haha. talk to yall later..