"ill live"..day 1
words to descibe this moment: sucks. misserable. upset. angry. nervous. anxious. worried. stressed. hurting...
Yep, it sucks. He was supposed to call tonight but of coures, he didn't. But I knew he wouldn't, honestly. He's way too 'in the moment'...
Tonight didn't turn out to be a total disaster though..I had plans but then those got messed up, somehow. So Kalen called and said him and some people from church were goin to play basketball at Decatur Heritage and asked if I wanted to come. I said sure, why not. It was 9:00 and I didnt' really feel like sitting at home feeling sorry for myself haha so I went over there and had a really good time w/ all of them. Me, Andrew, and Kalen went and sat in the back of Kalen's new truck and talked for like an hour, then Sumer called and I talked to her for a while and she kept bringing up Brian and i was like ugh..so that kinda put me back in my depressed mode, then amanda called, who is also on the trip w/ Brian, and we talked for a little while..anyway, it didnt turn out to be as bad of a night as i expected..although Brian not calling did piss me off, but, like I said, i expected that.
I saw a really disturbing commercial today. It was "WARMING massage lotion AND a self lubricant in one.." but then to top if off at the end of the commercial you could hear a girl like giggling,sexually...yeah, intresting.
I've got soccer camp tomorrow...maybe. Unless the hurricane changes those plans, hopefully it will b/c i do NOT want to go whatsoever. and then Monday and Tuesday ive got it from 9-3....ugh. anyway, ive got a really bad headache so im gonna go to sleep..and yeah, i'll live.
Yep, it sucks. He was supposed to call tonight but of coures, he didn't. But I knew he wouldn't, honestly. He's way too 'in the moment'...
Tonight didn't turn out to be a total disaster though..I had plans but then those got messed up, somehow. So Kalen called and said him and some people from church were goin to play basketball at Decatur Heritage and asked if I wanted to come. I said sure, why not. It was 9:00 and I didnt' really feel like sitting at home feeling sorry for myself haha so I went over there and had a really good time w/ all of them. Me, Andrew, and Kalen went and sat in the back of Kalen's new truck and talked for like an hour, then Sumer called and I talked to her for a while and she kept bringing up Brian and i was like ugh..so that kinda put me back in my depressed mode, then amanda called, who is also on the trip w/ Brian, and we talked for a little while..anyway, it didnt turn out to be as bad of a night as i expected..although Brian not calling did piss me off, but, like I said, i expected that.
I saw a really disturbing commercial today. It was "WARMING massage lotion AND a self lubricant in one.." but then to top if off at the end of the commercial you could hear a girl like giggling,sexually...yeah, intresting.
I've got soccer camp tomorrow...maybe. Unless the hurricane changes those plans, hopefully it will b/c i do NOT want to go whatsoever. and then Monday and Tuesday ive got it from 9-3....ugh. anyway, ive got a really bad headache so im gonna go to sleep..and yeah, i'll live.