the start of the rest of my life.
my second last night in my bed, in a few months. this time two days later, i'll be at the airport, saying goodbye to the people that mean so much to me. it's scary, to go to a place i've never even been to before, leaving behind people who i've come to love so much, and hoping that i wouldn't come to regret this in the years to come.
but somehow, i know that God's truly the one that's at the wheel. and i know he's opened this door and closed the others for a reason. not only that, He's already gone ahead and made all the preparations for me. for example, if there hadn't been spaces for the senggarang trip last year, i wouldn't have gotten to know keith and vyan. and then i wouldn't have been as comfortable at tonight's gathering. these people are the people who i'm going to come to get to know very well in the year ahead. without them, i would be feeling so much more afraid about going to perth.
He also knew that i needed to get to know Him more, without the distraction of studies, that's why i had the past year to really grow and experience how it's like to be aligned with Him. He knew how much i really need TAG in my life, and that i needed the past year to really get to know them better. and the time spent at NUS was a good chance to practise making friends again. HAHA. to step up to a total stranger and say "hi, i'm renee. and you are...?" was really something i hadn't done in so very long. even though i've changed school many times and met many groups of people, there's always been a few people that i already knew before that.
in any case, it's a new beginning. but i'm not going to worry anymore, because i realise today that truly, it's all been prepared for already. thank You for that. (:
here i go.
but somehow, i know that God's truly the one that's at the wheel. and i know he's opened this door and closed the others for a reason. not only that, He's already gone ahead and made all the preparations for me. for example, if there hadn't been spaces for the senggarang trip last year, i wouldn't have gotten to know keith and vyan. and then i wouldn't have been as comfortable at tonight's gathering. these people are the people who i'm going to come to get to know very well in the year ahead. without them, i would be feeling so much more afraid about going to perth.
He also knew that i needed to get to know Him more, without the distraction of studies, that's why i had the past year to really grow and experience how it's like to be aligned with Him. He knew how much i really need TAG in my life, and that i needed the past year to really get to know them better. and the time spent at NUS was a good chance to practise making friends again. HAHA. to step up to a total stranger and say "hi, i'm renee. and you are...?" was really something i hadn't done in so very long. even though i've changed school many times and met many groups of people, there's always been a few people that i already knew before that.
in any case, it's a new beginning. but i'm not going to worry anymore, because i realise today that truly, it's all been prepared for already. thank You for that. (:
here i go.