sitting on the bed or lying wide awake, there's demons in my head and it's more than i can take.

[_justeverything]

i'm just sick of this. i'm sick of it. i'm sick of feeling miserable, sick of crying, sick of feeling guilty, sick of feeling so alone, sick of feeling so insecure, sick of feeling tired, sick of not feeling motivated to do anything, sick of feeling so hopeless, sick of feeling scared, sick of wanting to cut, sick of wanting to die. sick sick sick sick sick sick sick.

and you know what? i'm going to say it - it's not fair.

IT'S NOT FUCKING FAIR.

i want to hit things. i want to scream. i want to cut my arm to fucking shreds and i want to bleed to death.

i'm sick of it all and it's not fair.

i make myself sick.