I've been waiting for so long for someone to mend all the blame.
Psych day today. Last week I was feeling rotten so I didn't bother to try and schedule this week's appointment so that I would miss the least school, and just took whatever she suggested, and I'm rather appreciating that now. Because of the train times there is no point in me going into school before hand, and I won't get back to school until lunch time. On the downside, although I have a study right after lunch, I then have English followed by more "after-school" English. *sigh*
I haven't done any of my homework. For the psych, that is. Well, I haven't done any school homework either, but that's beside the point.
I'm busy a lot at the moment, thanks mostly to a certain youth worker. I'm getting involved in all sorts of youth leading stuff with him as well as just hanging out quite a bit. I think I've seen him every day for almost a week for one reason or another, on top of school, dancing, work etc.
At the moment that seems to be ok, it's still working on a "distraction" level and I'm keeping reasonably ok, but I'm wary of the fact that I'm likely to crash at any moment. That sucks, to put it simply, because I'm enjoying having something new to focus on and having someone new to hang out with - though that second part is confusing. But I'm all to aware that I'm committing myself to things and that generally that doesn't go well. I can feel amazing about doing stuff and being busy one minute and the next minute I want to be put in a box and forgotten about. Well, look at last week - I couldn't even manage to get out of the house to go to school. Then, since Friday, I haven't stopped! School, work, dancing, youth work, meetings about youth work, hanging out with my new friend...I even did some actually school work in my study period yesterday! It's crazy. I wish I had more control over my mood swings.
At the moment, I've committed myself to working as a youth worker every Friday night at his youth group, to helping out with the Church Benefice Holiday Club the first week of the summer holiday, to working as a youth leader at a camp that we're going to this summer, and now we're talking about going to Africa for two weeks next year. And it's not just him pushing this stuff. Ok, he asked me to be a youth leader for the youth group and the holiday camp, but I decided to push to help out with the Holiday Club and I was the one who suggested to him that we have a trip to Africa. And I doubt I'll stop there - I keep on suggesting stuff and agreeing to stuff.
I'd love it if things were different. I'm almost loving it at the moment. I just know that it's unlikely to last, and that's a horrible thing to know.
I haven't done any of my homework. For the psych, that is. Well, I haven't done any school homework either, but that's beside the point.
I'm busy a lot at the moment, thanks mostly to a certain youth worker. I'm getting involved in all sorts of youth leading stuff with him as well as just hanging out quite a bit. I think I've seen him every day for almost a week for one reason or another, on top of school, dancing, work etc.
At the moment that seems to be ok, it's still working on a "distraction" level and I'm keeping reasonably ok, but I'm wary of the fact that I'm likely to crash at any moment. That sucks, to put it simply, because I'm enjoying having something new to focus on and having someone new to hang out with - though that second part is confusing. But I'm all to aware that I'm committing myself to things and that generally that doesn't go well. I can feel amazing about doing stuff and being busy one minute and the next minute I want to be put in a box and forgotten about. Well, look at last week - I couldn't even manage to get out of the house to go to school. Then, since Friday, I haven't stopped! School, work, dancing, youth work, meetings about youth work, hanging out with my new friend...I even did some actually school work in my study period yesterday! It's crazy. I wish I had more control over my mood swings.
At the moment, I've committed myself to working as a youth worker every Friday night at his youth group, to helping out with the Church Benefice Holiday Club the first week of the summer holiday, to working as a youth leader at a camp that we're going to this summer, and now we're talking about going to Africa for two weeks next year. And it's not just him pushing this stuff. Ok, he asked me to be a youth leader for the youth group and the holiday camp, but I decided to push to help out with the Holiday Club and I was the one who suggested to him that we have a trip to Africa. And I doubt I'll stop there - I keep on suggesting stuff and agreeing to stuff.
I'd love it if things were different. I'm almost loving it at the moment. I just know that it's unlikely to last, and that's a horrible thing to know.