kindness is underrated
Stina and Ty just came to visit me at lunch. It made my day :)
I love my friends
Recovering from surgery sucks. I didnt think it would be this hard, or painful. I thought id heal faster then this and be up and around. But im not. Im suprised i dont get more lonely though. I enjoy being alone (with my lovely kitties) or just spending the day with my mom. I dont miss school at all and i dont miss people that much. Its been like a little break from society. I dont have to deal with the drama, or stress, or insecurities i feel everyday when i go to school. And its like... the people who make an effort to see how i am doing are the only ones i care about seeing or hearing from. That makes me sound like a cold person. :/ Its not that i dont want friends, but i dont want friends to go out of their way for me who normally wouldnt. I really didnt expect anyone but Stina or John to come visit me. But Evey, Taylor, Bry, Kris, Brandon, and Ty have all came too. Zenker, Mike, and Evan have also made appearences. I feel so loved.
My ma is making me go back to school for half days soon. I wish i could just get the homework from the teachers and go home and do it. I feel so uncomfortable at school. It makes me shy/quiet.
I have so much to look foward to. In about a month or two i am getting surgery on my other knee. But on the bright side, in a couple years or so i get my screws taken out and i will have normal knees. That means i will have no pain in my patellas at all when i run, or jump, or walk, or sit, or anything. So the surgeries are worth it in the long run.
I havn't taken a shower in 11 days. I feel like a nasty ass scrub. But dont worry i have washed my upper body with a washcloth and my ma washed my hair once. Today i can take my first official shower since surgery cause the doctors didnt want water to penetrate the wound before now.
I really like the Food Channel/Network. Iron Chef is cool. It makes me wish i could cook better. I really like That 70s show too. And ER, and Family Guy, and Lost, and Desperate Housewifes, and Everybody Loves Raymond. Viva La BAM was funny yesterday too, they had Prank Wars. I watch a lot of TV now that i'm laying down all day, and movies too.
Lord i am going to get so fat. Its a good thing the pain pills make me not hungry.
I wish i was good at something. I want to be more artistic. I think i am going to go paint now. With my kiddie Crayola waterpaints.
"As we celebrate mediocrity
all the boys upstairs want to see
how much you'll pay for
what you used to get for free."
I love my friends
Recovering from surgery sucks. I didnt think it would be this hard, or painful. I thought id heal faster then this and be up and around. But im not. Im suprised i dont get more lonely though. I enjoy being alone (with my lovely kitties) or just spending the day with my mom. I dont miss school at all and i dont miss people that much. Its been like a little break from society. I dont have to deal with the drama, or stress, or insecurities i feel everyday when i go to school. And its like... the people who make an effort to see how i am doing are the only ones i care about seeing or hearing from. That makes me sound like a cold person. :/ Its not that i dont want friends, but i dont want friends to go out of their way for me who normally wouldnt. I really didnt expect anyone but Stina or John to come visit me. But Evey, Taylor, Bry, Kris, Brandon, and Ty have all came too. Zenker, Mike, and Evan have also made appearences. I feel so loved.
My ma is making me go back to school for half days soon. I wish i could just get the homework from the teachers and go home and do it. I feel so uncomfortable at school. It makes me shy/quiet.
I have so much to look foward to. In about a month or two i am getting surgery on my other knee. But on the bright side, in a couple years or so i get my screws taken out and i will have normal knees. That means i will have no pain in my patellas at all when i run, or jump, or walk, or sit, or anything. So the surgeries are worth it in the long run.
I havn't taken a shower in 11 days. I feel like a nasty ass scrub. But dont worry i have washed my upper body with a washcloth and my ma washed my hair once. Today i can take my first official shower since surgery cause the doctors didnt want water to penetrate the wound before now.
I really like the Food Channel/Network. Iron Chef is cool. It makes me wish i could cook better. I really like That 70s show too. And ER, and Family Guy, and Lost, and Desperate Housewifes, and Everybody Loves Raymond. Viva La BAM was funny yesterday too, they had Prank Wars. I watch a lot of TV now that i'm laying down all day, and movies too.
Lord i am going to get so fat. Its a good thing the pain pills make me not hungry.
I wish i was good at something. I want to be more artistic. I think i am going to go paint now. With my kiddie Crayola waterpaints.
"As we celebrate mediocrity
all the boys upstairs want to see
how much you'll pay for
what you used to get for free."