I still consider you a friend and I love you and Robin very much and I think your mom is wonderful. And it's a really hard situation that you're in, and if I were faced with it myself I think I'd just be paralyzed, I wouldn't know what to do. And I don't think I can be the one to tell you what to do now.
I still think, though, it might be a good idea to try seeing a psychologist. I was tremendously fucked up last year and I think that the woman I was seeing was the person who helped me most, because she was genuinely nice, not fake I-have-to-deal-with-you nice, but real nice, and she was common-sensical and when I didn't know what to do or was trying to be self-indulgent with the crap I had to deal with, she kept me doing the things I should've been doing, she kept me from falling apart. There's a point when you get to feel like everybody else is always bitching at you, I think, and if there's one person who you can bitch at and can tell you what to do with yourself - then that's good, I think. I know you hate psychologists, but the worst thing you're going to find is someone who you don't connect with and don't like.
The lights for Oliver were good. I think you should ask Nahan or Jim about running lights for concerts, definitely, and Daniel would probably appreciate the break. And it's your last year, like you said.
And the thing is, whatever college you go to, you can still help with tech. Not everyone involved with a production is going to be a theatre major, especially not a tech major, there aren't enough of them. So yeah, you can definitely look forward to a lot of people wanting you to help them, because good techies are worth their weight in gold. And if you come home during the summer there are a lot of community theatres who would love if you did tech for them. (Definitely the Farmington Players - their scene transitions for Charley's Aunt, which was a brilliant work in every other way, were pretty shoddy.)
And I don't care if you said anything about me, cos it's you, and if you decided to tell everyone that Kimmy is a small monkey that dances with bananas, that would be perfectly all right cause it's Andry. I'm sort of curious to know what you said that makes you feel so guilty, but that's just curiosity. If it was something like Kimmy is a small monkey, I do want to know though, cos that's just funny.
I still think, though, it might be a good idea to try seeing a psychologist. I was tremendously fucked up last year and I think that the woman I was seeing was the person who helped me most, because she was genuinely nice, not fake I-have-to-deal-with-you nice, but real nice, and she was common-sensical and when I didn't know what to do or was trying to be self-indulgent with the crap I had to deal with, she kept me doing the things I should've been doing, she kept me from falling apart. There's a point when you get to feel like everybody else is always bitching at you, I think, and if there's one person who you can bitch at and can tell you what to do with yourself - then that's good, I think. I know you hate psychologists, but the worst thing you're going to find is someone who you don't connect with and don't like.
The lights for Oliver were good. I think you should ask Nahan or Jim about running lights for concerts, definitely, and Daniel would probably appreciate the break. And it's your last year, like you said.
And the thing is, whatever college you go to, you can still help with tech. Not everyone involved with a production is going to be a theatre major, especially not a tech major, there aren't enough of them. So yeah, you can definitely look forward to a lot of people wanting you to help them, because good techies are worth their weight in gold. And if you come home during the summer there are a lot of community theatres who would love if you did tech for them. (Definitely the Farmington Players - their scene transitions for Charley's Aunt, which was a brilliant work in every other way, were pretty shoddy.)
And I don't care if you said anything about me, cos it's you, and if you decided to tell everyone that Kimmy is a small monkey that dances with bananas, that would be perfectly all right cause it's Andry. I'm sort of curious to know what you said that makes you feel so guilty, but that's just curiosity. If it was something like Kimmy is a small monkey, I do want to know though, cos that's just funny.
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