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YAY!!!!! I got the Green Day cd. well, kinda, i actually just copied it onto my computer from a friends cd... but i still got the music!! YAY!! I guess that makes me a pirate actually... arrrrrgh! Now i have to think of something else that im gonna make Corbin buy me. Hmmm...
Today was a half-day and Corbin, Emilym Chad and i went to backyard burgers. MMM... sooo good. Then Em and I took Corby and Chadimus home, and we went to the book store and to get coffee. Corbin got mad at me cause i didnt call him. OK in all honesty, i didnt think that he would call me and i thought he was gonna be in town picking up the expansion pack for final fantasy11. Seriously though, like the only time he calls me without me nagging him to im not home. :( I just dont know... its like no matter what we do, we piss the other off. It's depressing. I used to never be able to be mad at him, and vice-versa, or if we were mad, it would only last for like 10 minutes at the most. It's starting to scare me, because im getting tired of being mad and mad at constantly, especially when i have to deal with the stuff at home from my dad (who dredfully should be home soon). And its really sad when people ask how me and corbin are and i honestly dont know how much longer either of us can take it. I want to stay with him dont get me wrong at all, im just worried something is gonna happen and we're not gonna want to come back together afterwards. I know for a fact that sometimes he dreds seeing me (be for any reason it happens). A while ago that would have been unheard of. And another thing... he can constantly say to me that im being mean but if i dare say it to him for any reason (like, he's being mean) he totally freaks out and gets pissed off at me. It makes me sad when he says that im being mean because if i am, i dont want to be.
oh... im gonna stop whining and tell myself that everything will be ok. "Amanda, everything will be ok" ::sigh:: ok i guess its time to study. blah.