it's only a matter of time. then you'll see what i do.

[_jolie_fille]

im so refreshed. i made a list of things over my 4 day beach excursion to do when i jump back into reality. hence.. now. since its in my head i cant really write it out. i just know what im supposed to do . reality isnt so bad. sitting out in the water and running in the early morning just watchin the sun come up.. and layin out on the surfboard where no waves can drag me into shore and lookin out at the ocean thinking about everything.. it does something to you. like a mini-high that you cant get enough of. seems a bit corny and out of a cheesy movie, but im tellin you, its true. i came back a bit calmer, a bit less dramatic, and a bit more in shape. a bit less worrisome too. as for what has happened while i was away, i dont care. ive finally come to a point where i dont have to grit my teeth when i say "im happy for you" or cringe when names come up.my mind is finally past missing what was and what might have been if i had known what wouldve happened. right now, i wouldnt change a thing. ive made so many more friends without all this drama..and got a few back. had a few stab me in the back and some shove it in my face. but i see where i am now and i can figure out where im going beforehand...thats something i wasnt able to do before.
(by the way, i cant surf to save my life)

oh, and if you dont know the definition of "love", then dont say you did. if id have known that maybe this wouldnt have gone through so much. cuz i dont deserve that. and hopefully youll realize how strongly i took that word. yeah thanks.

thank you to miss kristin love for today. it was such a good help to me. love you dearly

oh and i saw miss stephanie over break!it was awesome!! ive missed you love ( is it PH or F? i always forget)