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Can anyone explain why a person, who obviously needs a change (or a firm direction) in their life, decides against logic to continue exploring options that no longer have any room to benefit said person in the slightest bit? I feel like I sit and take an extraordinary amount of pain on behalf of someone else, and their actions, which totally have nothing to do with me. Yet, I climb back into good graces, and allow my self morals and convictions to be upheld in the slightest regards. I hate when a person thinks that they have you exactly where they want you; where that person believes they have the upper hand. I hate it when a person thinks that because of their actions, I am suffering, and that is better than being apologetic or sympathetic. In reality, no one has the upper hand, because I fall down in a lack of self-confidence, and you are so obviously and blantanly wrong. I just wish, for once in the past two and a half years, that I could hangup from a phone conversation and realize that everything WAS going to be okay. Instead, I sit with constant dread over what is happening some 200 miles away. I digress, but alas, I guess...
"I'm such a bitch."
"I'm such a bitch."