There is nothing in this world to fear, but fear itself.
I am afraid, worried, constantly thinking what if.
I have finally given in and wrong is not right and right is right. The bad, evil things I do are a cry for attention, or a fulfillment of need. I fear too little, and often laugh in the face of danger. I was raised to be fearless of everything but my mother and that remains my only true fear. My mother, needles, and death...in that order.
I've decided that there is more to life than doing unlawful, wrong things and I need to repent and become a daughter of the lord. (Hahahahah...I'm just kidding. I doubt anything would bring me to that.)
John came to see me last night in the wee hours, after he got off work. It's always a pleasure to see him. There's always a happy spark at the point of his arrival.
Today was a bad day, due to my own stupidity. I made a bad mistake I will never ever make again. I have learned from it, and I pray that Karma will not recieve my mistake in such a way as to push it back on me with a heavy hand. I've learned, not the hard way this time. Please give me a break, whoever you are. I have learned and I am done.
I hope I see my John again tonight. It would really make me feel a lot better.
*********Lord knows I'm weak. But won't somebody get me off of this reef?************
::Jessica::
I have finally given in and wrong is not right and right is right. The bad, evil things I do are a cry for attention, or a fulfillment of need. I fear too little, and often laugh in the face of danger. I was raised to be fearless of everything but my mother and that remains my only true fear. My mother, needles, and death...in that order.
I've decided that there is more to life than doing unlawful, wrong things and I need to repent and become a daughter of the lord. (Hahahahah...I'm just kidding. I doubt anything would bring me to that.)
John came to see me last night in the wee hours, after he got off work. It's always a pleasure to see him. There's always a happy spark at the point of his arrival.
Today was a bad day, due to my own stupidity. I made a bad mistake I will never ever make again. I have learned from it, and I pray that Karma will not recieve my mistake in such a way as to push it back on me with a heavy hand. I've learned, not the hard way this time. Please give me a break, whoever you are. I have learned and I am done.
I hope I see my John again tonight. It would really make me feel a lot better.
*********Lord knows I'm weak. But won't somebody get me off of this reef?************
::Jessica::