Trials and Tribulations of a Winding River
In life, sometimes...you screw up.
I happen to screw up...constantly.
Call it a point of character. Call it lack of faith or crutch. Call it what you will. I am a self-proclaimed fuck-up.
I have taken myself through soo many unnecessary problems and caused myself so much unnecessary pain. These things could have been prevented, hand I the mind to listen to others. Had I the mind to shut the fuck up and look at things from someone else's point of view. Had I not been raised to bodly face consequence and fear the right decision...
This is about my stubbornness, my fears, and my inability to judge between unnecessary risk and bravery...which isn't really bravery at all, but cowardice in disguise.
I am a fucking coward, self-righteous, and a fool..and there is NO need.
I thought I had figured it all out. I thought that I had realized that life only weighs heavily on other's opinions and words, if you let it.
I didn't have the courage to face my fears. My fears have taken over my life...I am at a stand still. Because of these things, I am faced with decisions that.. I never thought I'd have to make.. things I never thought I'd have to think.. and feelings I never thought I'd feel. As with every mistake I make, however large or small, I learn. I do.
If I may name one strong point about me, at a time when no others exist; it is my ability to adapt and learn.
I never repeat things once I am bit in the ass. Bit in the ass twice and I'll be permanently crippled. And knowing that keeps me from repeating my offenses.
At this point I'll forgive everyone for being who I am. I'll admit that I am a stubborn, opinionated asshole; who often cares nothing for other's opinions.
And however blind I may be, I hope you all will love me just the same.
Life is often more mistake-ridden in hind-sight.
Thank you for being there for me.
I love you.
::Jessica::
I happen to screw up...constantly.
Call it a point of character. Call it lack of faith or crutch. Call it what you will. I am a self-proclaimed fuck-up.
I have taken myself through soo many unnecessary problems and caused myself so much unnecessary pain. These things could have been prevented, hand I the mind to listen to others. Had I the mind to shut the fuck up and look at things from someone else's point of view. Had I not been raised to bodly face consequence and fear the right decision...
This is about my stubbornness, my fears, and my inability to judge between unnecessary risk and bravery...which isn't really bravery at all, but cowardice in disguise.
I am a fucking coward, self-righteous, and a fool..and there is NO need.
I thought I had figured it all out. I thought that I had realized that life only weighs heavily on other's opinions and words, if you let it.
I didn't have the courage to face my fears. My fears have taken over my life...I am at a stand still. Because of these things, I am faced with decisions that.. I never thought I'd have to make.. things I never thought I'd have to think.. and feelings I never thought I'd feel. As with every mistake I make, however large or small, I learn. I do.
If I may name one strong point about me, at a time when no others exist; it is my ability to adapt and learn.
I never repeat things once I am bit in the ass. Bit in the ass twice and I'll be permanently crippled. And knowing that keeps me from repeating my offenses.
At this point I'll forgive everyone for being who I am. I'll admit that I am a stubborn, opinionated asshole; who often cares nothing for other's opinions.
And however blind I may be, I hope you all will love me just the same.
Life is often more mistake-ridden in hind-sight.
Thank you for being there for me.
I love you.
::Jessica::