good day sunlight... i'd like to say how truely bright you are
i've been having issues lately. for some reason, after working my ass off and seeing absolutely no pay off other than not failing chem, i'm doing extremely well... like... i have the potential to get a high grade. which is... insane! b/c after sweat and tears all year all i've seen is the bare minimum of passing. and i'm kicking ass in chem, calc and genetics lab and intercultural communications. and i've been working out/running my ass off. the run down to the lake has been absolutely gorgeous and lakeshore=breathtaking. and mother agreed to pay for my ticket to australia... so part of me can say, "i'm feeling pretty damn good about myself right now" but for some reason... i can't fully give in to that.
which brings me to my issues. my teacher for intercultural communications is amazing. obviously depaul requires a certain amount of staple classes and focuses on its prized attribute, diversity... seeing as we are in the middle of the city. this class thus far has narrowed in on racism and the importance of awareness. whether or not you are conscious, everyone benefits and/or is inhibited by racism. i've always considered myself an extremely aware person. i am aware of my feelings of alienation and prejudice, but taking this class makes has enlightened me as to why and that so many other people of minority go through the exact same stages. it is somewhat unnerving to pinpoint why i own certain viewpoints and have attained feelings of resentment... because of my nationality, although their presence has never been doubted. i leave the class every monday, wednesday, friday... quite frankly... lost... and in question of my own identity. i am korean, but raised in a predominantly white suburb. if i walk into a room of all white individuals, i feel completely out of place... so i do not identify with "white people" but if i walk into a room of all koreans... i am equally as awkward and uncomfortable... so where do i fall?
it's completely true, minorities talk about and focus on these issues more, the reason being... because we have to. which presents the question argued and discussed for the past two weeks in class, "what is whiteness?" obviously it is something rarely discussed b/c it is something someone of the "white" color (if you prefer that word) never has to think about. lately i've been wondering and exploring the answer to that question a lot more... in hopes of understanding the perceptions of other people and the way their mind works... now that i'm finally understanding how mine works.
which brings me to my issues. my teacher for intercultural communications is amazing. obviously depaul requires a certain amount of staple classes and focuses on its prized attribute, diversity... seeing as we are in the middle of the city. this class thus far has narrowed in on racism and the importance of awareness. whether or not you are conscious, everyone benefits and/or is inhibited by racism. i've always considered myself an extremely aware person. i am aware of my feelings of alienation and prejudice, but taking this class makes has enlightened me as to why and that so many other people of minority go through the exact same stages. it is somewhat unnerving to pinpoint why i own certain viewpoints and have attained feelings of resentment... because of my nationality, although their presence has never been doubted. i leave the class every monday, wednesday, friday... quite frankly... lost... and in question of my own identity. i am korean, but raised in a predominantly white suburb. if i walk into a room of all white individuals, i feel completely out of place... so i do not identify with "white people" but if i walk into a room of all koreans... i am equally as awkward and uncomfortable... so where do i fall?
it's completely true, minorities talk about and focus on these issues more, the reason being... because we have to. which presents the question argued and discussed for the past two weeks in class, "what is whiteness?" obviously it is something rarely discussed b/c it is something someone of the "white" color (if you prefer that word) never has to think about. lately i've been wondering and exploring the answer to that question a lot more... in hopes of understanding the perceptions of other people and the way their mind works... now that i'm finally understanding how mine works.