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[_jaye_]

I got my results today.

First I felt like throwing a fit.

Then I felt depressed.

Then I felt inferior.

And then it's failure.

Then I felt like crying.

And I really wanted to injure myself.

Then I felt really bad.

Then I felt like crying.

And dying.

Now I feel all those.

I think I really will begin to cry soon.  Just the matter of time.

Not matter what my parents say, no matter what Kenwin's mom says, no matter what Mr Campbell says, no matter what anyone says, I will still feel that way.  I think I really should just go numb and not feel a thing.  Maybe then I'd save heck of a lot of tears and my throat wouldn't hurt so much.  I don't want to go to school.  I don't want to face anything.  And it's not just because of the results.

Why the hell do I have to exist.