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Mom called. And was cool about everything, which is funny. I got a message from Lexi, probably the same time I was on the phone with Mom.
She said- she said she hates to see me all....all messed up like this, and that no matter what, I am still her baby...and I shouldn't be hurt..and I have to remeber that beautiful man who says he loves me...he has to be hurting a zillion times worse.
So she's fine with it. Said something about gay and happy, I didn't really pay attenion, because I was crying. Yes- I was crying.
Now how do I go around and tell Milo....how sorry I am? How...kissing Chad was like....I'm not sure.It was...like in those really bad gangster flicks, with the ferious kiss, the one that looks painful. You know, bruises on the lips, the way your jaw aches from....just the pressure and the anger behind it. Just brought up so much...I felt so hurt right then, I had to hurt someone else. Chad- I'm sorry. Milo- I feel like I owe you the world now, and that...I should be at your feet....
Mike keeps spouting off about Alison. I wish I knew her, so I had something to say about the subject. Chad, what happened? I...yeah, I owe everyone apologizes, especially you, Claire.
It wasn't right what I did.I didn't do it because of feelings for him...and I know he likes you alot. I can't explian it. There's no way to. I think you are the best, and you deserve the best. Even if that is Chad. ;)
Manda- *waves* Hi, love.
Lexi- Oh girl! I've been thinking about you,and at Teen Choice, you just walk right past me! No, I'm not faking. Okay...maybe I am. Did you really want to come to see a mopey Jared? -sighs- I hear this phone call already. I'm sorry babe, I missed you.
Milo- I love you.
She said- she said she hates to see me all....all messed up like this, and that no matter what, I am still her baby...and I shouldn't be hurt..and I have to remeber that beautiful man who says he loves me...he has to be hurting a zillion times worse.
So she's fine with it. Said something about gay and happy, I didn't really pay attenion, because I was crying. Yes- I was crying.
Now how do I go around and tell Milo....how sorry I am? How...kissing Chad was like....I'm not sure.It was...like in those really bad gangster flicks, with the ferious kiss, the one that looks painful. You know, bruises on the lips, the way your jaw aches from....just the pressure and the anger behind it. Just brought up so much...I felt so hurt right then, I had to hurt someone else. Chad- I'm sorry. Milo- I feel like I owe you the world now, and that...I should be at your feet....
Mike keeps spouting off about Alison. I wish I knew her, so I had something to say about the subject. Chad, what happened? I...yeah, I owe everyone apologizes, especially you, Claire.
It wasn't right what I did.I didn't do it because of feelings for him...and I know he likes you alot. I can't explian it. There's no way to. I think you are the best, and you deserve the best. Even if that is Chad. ;)
Manda- *waves* Hi, love.
Lexi- Oh girl! I've been thinking about you,and at Teen Choice, you just walk right past me! No, I'm not faking. Okay...maybe I am. Did you really want to come to see a mopey Jared? -sighs- I hear this phone call already. I'm sorry babe, I missed you.
Milo- I love you.