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I don't know. This whole thing has gotten me...confused.
I don't like this feeling...of like I was just...something meaningless. And I don't need....him telling me, I love you, we needed this, and then read ....him saying this is the happiest he's ever been.
That makes me..what? Nothing. Takes away all value of my...whole being, I guess.
I can't even say his name with...without another part of me dying. So much of me has died..so much of me. Just the idea of love...makes whatever hasn't died hurt unbelieveably. Lexi is my goddess, sitting and just...hugging me. I wish I remebered why we broke up...cause she's been so wonderful to me..I feel bad.
All I've been doing is feeling bad lately. Like everyone's hurt around me...is my fault. Oh well.
I don't like this feeling...of like I was just...something meaningless. And I don't need....him telling me, I love you, we needed this, and then read ....him saying this is the happiest he's ever been.
That makes me..what? Nothing. Takes away all value of my...whole being, I guess.
I can't even say his name with...without another part of me dying. So much of me has died..so much of me. Just the idea of love...makes whatever hasn't died hurt unbelieveably. Lexi is my goddess, sitting and just...hugging me. I wish I remebered why we broke up...cause she's been so wonderful to me..I feel bad.
All I've been doing is feeling bad lately. Like everyone's hurt around me...is my fault. Oh well.