it's pure precision
i'm not sure what i'm looking for anymore.
it's a question of control.
Just a pain that i'm used to.
What's getting me down is nothing i need to believe.
He's a smooth operator it's time we cut him down to size.
All he ever gives is his pain.
Life is so bland on the weekdays. Living without those eyes staring at me like she can see my soul. It's unnerving sometimes. We went to the hot springs, where in turn i twisted my ankle on the hike down. We heard the pop, it was hot.
What am i waiting for?
What am i doing?
Wtf.
I think i'm waiting until next summer. Though what happens if something happens between now and then? Where will i be then?
I need to take things into my own hands and not comprimise with myself, or i'll just end up where i am now. I'm not really interested in going to school. Yeah i want to get a good job where i can make more money and capitalistic. Fuck, it's so hard to start....so hard to start anything, anything at all.
I dont even want to make livejournal entries because they require so much effort.
I'm so fucking lazy. I don't want to do anything. Video games now require too much effort.
Just leave me alone, let me sleep, let me stare at the tv, just go away and let me rot.
I dont have the motivation to create, i have the desire....but no drive.
I dont understand.
Staring at my desktop I see art that i will never be able to create. Depressing.
My mind is closed off to creativity.
I cant...
I cant...
I cant...
The only thing i have to live for...to get me through the week is my lovely imA.
She has everything that i'm missing in my own life.
I'll leech off of her world.
it's a question of control.
Just a pain that i'm used to.
What's getting me down is nothing i need to believe.
He's a smooth operator it's time we cut him down to size.
All he ever gives is his pain.
Life is so bland on the weekdays. Living without those eyes staring at me like she can see my soul. It's unnerving sometimes. We went to the hot springs, where in turn i twisted my ankle on the hike down. We heard the pop, it was hot.
What am i waiting for?
What am i doing?
Wtf.
I think i'm waiting until next summer. Though what happens if something happens between now and then? Where will i be then?
I need to take things into my own hands and not comprimise with myself, or i'll just end up where i am now. I'm not really interested in going to school. Yeah i want to get a good job where i can make more money and capitalistic. Fuck, it's so hard to start....so hard to start anything, anything at all.
I dont even want to make livejournal entries because they require so much effort.
I'm so fucking lazy. I don't want to do anything. Video games now require too much effort.
Just leave me alone, let me sleep, let me stare at the tv, just go away and let me rot.
I dont have the motivation to create, i have the desire....but no drive.
I dont understand.
Staring at my desktop I see art that i will never be able to create. Depressing.
My mind is closed off to creativity.
I cant...
I cant...
I cant...
The only thing i have to live for...to get me through the week is my lovely imA.
She has everything that i'm missing in my own life.
I'll leech off of her world.