*sigh* Life As it Is in a nutshell
The world is so depressing.I always believed as a child that I would one day become this important figure and that I'd be rich and living comfortably with a great future. Sadly the world doesnt always permit this destiny.Those who seek to strike it rich quick later pay their retribution.I just realized today after I got home after riding all the rides at Disneyland, how fake the world is.I wondered why I enjoyed the rides so much and then it occured to me WHY do you cory? It's not real so why believe in it and for about ten minutes my imagination went away and I just kept stabbing myself.You'll never be this and you'll never live like this or have these things.It kinda hurt.I mean I just thought to myself, wow I'm really not important as I think I am and I was right about that.I really am.I'm just an average 16 year old boy, (turning 17 Jan. 6th), with nothing more to live for than to work and eat and sleep for the rest of my life, and that would not be fake.Humans were made to work and those who struggle with work and work the hardest, are the ones who get rewards.I'm just a simple young boy from California like any other teenager from California borned into an American home.I'm nothing special, so why believe I am.Its people out there who make you FEEL special, but your really not, that really love you.Am I special?What the hell do I have to do in life to stay happy?I for one am not gonna pop meds and be controlled just to stay happy.I just want to be happy with whatever I do.Thats all.Unfortunately, again the world does not permit, and I, you and everyone else suffers the consequences in life.Some don't but most do.All I can say is I'm really sad right now.Thats all.Just super, super sad.No reason.Maybe just a moodswing, but other than that, no reasons other than the ones I explained above.Maybe its just the shock of what I just wrote is true.I dunno.post