Happy New Year!!!
Yes, so...first thing is first...
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
I don't...think I will be around the internet for it, and if I am, I may forget to update this journal just because I am talented like that. In my forgetfulness, yes. There is much talent to be found in there, I am certain, yet I have not found it. Maybe someone else could try, but I won't let you, so don't. Anyway!! Not certain how many people read this, anymore, but enjoy your New Year's celebration if you have one, and if it's "just another day" to you, than enjoy it anyway! I personally don't anticipate doing anything special because I never do. Well, there was those few years. But, those have long since faded, and now things are just almost always mellow and nothing goes on for ANY reason, at all. Oh, my life is still fun, don't get me wrong. Just a lot more mellow, which I am perfectly happy with.
This year wasn't too great, yet it also was far from terrible. I am still so much in love with my boyfriend, animal companions, drawing and reading. I haven't changed at all, except maybe I am a bit more confident. Other than that? Well, I am not afraid to show my bitchy side. I never have been, but this year has made me even more...bitter? I guess. And I have expressed myself in some hurtful ways to others, but you know what the best part is? I don't even care. I am still overly loving to my animals and especially my boyfriend, I still love (or at least tolerate) those I consider "friends" in some way or another...I'm just a bitter bitch, always have been, but now I am letting it show much more.
In short...nothing huge has changed.
So, goodbye to 2007. I welcome what 2008 might have to offer, whether it is bad or good. You can always move forward, but you can never move back. One touch denied is one touch lost. One conversation brushed off is one you will never again experience for "the first time." A friendly smile ignored is one you will never get back. I have never been all about living life to the fullest, but maybe I should. The more I realize all that I have ignored, abandoned, forgotten...the more I wish I had taken on the mindset of living life to the fullest. The more I realize how stupid fights were, the more I wish I could take them back. I know that everything we do, every experience, makes us who and what we are. But, when the things you reflect on make you feel so terrible. Well, you just wish you had a "go back" button to fix them!
Everything is perfect, though. Everything that has happened, everything that may or may not happened...I wouldn't have it any other way!! I love my life, myself, my animals and...the only man that has ever had enough balls to put up with me and my psychotic ways...my boyfriend!!!
gute Nacht!
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
I don't...think I will be around the internet for it, and if I am, I may forget to update this journal just because I am talented like that. In my forgetfulness, yes. There is much talent to be found in there, I am certain, yet I have not found it. Maybe someone else could try, but I won't let you, so don't. Anyway!! Not certain how many people read this, anymore, but enjoy your New Year's celebration if you have one, and if it's "just another day" to you, than enjoy it anyway! I personally don't anticipate doing anything special because I never do. Well, there was those few years. But, those have long since faded, and now things are just almost always mellow and nothing goes on for ANY reason, at all. Oh, my life is still fun, don't get me wrong. Just a lot more mellow, which I am perfectly happy with.
This year wasn't too great, yet it also was far from terrible. I am still so much in love with my boyfriend, animal companions, drawing and reading. I haven't changed at all, except maybe I am a bit more confident. Other than that? Well, I am not afraid to show my bitchy side. I never have been, but this year has made me even more...bitter? I guess. And I have expressed myself in some hurtful ways to others, but you know what the best part is? I don't even care. I am still overly loving to my animals and especially my boyfriend, I still love (or at least tolerate) those I consider "friends" in some way or another...I'm just a bitter bitch, always have been, but now I am letting it show much more.
In short...nothing huge has changed.
So, goodbye to 2007. I welcome what 2008 might have to offer, whether it is bad or good. You can always move forward, but you can never move back. One touch denied is one touch lost. One conversation brushed off is one you will never again experience for "the first time." A friendly smile ignored is one you will never get back. I have never been all about living life to the fullest, but maybe I should. The more I realize all that I have ignored, abandoned, forgotten...the more I wish I had taken on the mindset of living life to the fullest. The more I realize how stupid fights were, the more I wish I could take them back. I know that everything we do, every experience, makes us who and what we are. But, when the things you reflect on make you feel so terrible. Well, you just wish you had a "go back" button to fix them!
Everything is perfect, though. Everything that has happened, everything that may or may not happened...I wouldn't have it any other way!! I love my life, myself, my animals and...the only man that has ever had enough balls to put up with me and my psychotic ways...my boyfriend!!!
gute Nacht!