im in LUST with everything all at the same time
so im getting that way again.
you know, where you wanna go lay in bed for a few weeks.
i am home now. i left school early. im tired of always handling it the way a strong person should.
i feel like such a loser. crying all 2nd period. on the verge in 4th. again in 5th.
no body cool cries at school. geeezz.
i failed three tests on monday. a big important one in AP Enviromental.
we only effin get 2 grades in that class. QUIZES and TESTS. and we teach our selfs basically. I MEAN COME ON, IM NOT IN COLLEGE YET! and today i ask him if he can take more grades, like let me do an outline or something, and "Mr. FuNNy TaYlOr WhO HAS TO BE tHe CoOlEst TeaChEr To All ThE CooL KidS" responds by 'you can suck up for a better grade' and then laughs and gets some other kids in the class to laugh because hes SOOO funny!!!! that was first period. and then he is the parking lot monitor guy and he didnt even ask me for my pass to leave today. i must of had "i hate today" written on my forehead.
i hope he knows what a jackass he is. he doesnt though.
i feel so dumb. i was running late today. i lost my keys so i got my moms extra one she keeps for my car. i didnt do my hair. i dont have any make-up so whatever which doesnt bug me that much but it pisses me off that im ugly. i wore my goodwill guy pants that i cut up and are too big and a jacket. eww. and lastly when i go around looking like shit NONE of my friends ask me whats wrong, why i look like shit, and when i walk away without saying anything they just stand there.HE wouldnt even keep eye contact with me. im being such a pussy right now. and it makes me so much more like a pussy to ralize that fact that THEY couldnt care LESSSS about me.
im so tired of being invisible.
you know, where you wanna go lay in bed for a few weeks.
i am home now. i left school early. im tired of always handling it the way a strong person should.
i feel like such a loser. crying all 2nd period. on the verge in 4th. again in 5th.
no body cool cries at school. geeezz.
i failed three tests on monday. a big important one in AP Enviromental.
we only effin get 2 grades in that class. QUIZES and TESTS. and we teach our selfs basically. I MEAN COME ON, IM NOT IN COLLEGE YET! and today i ask him if he can take more grades, like let me do an outline or something, and "Mr. FuNNy TaYlOr WhO HAS TO BE tHe CoOlEst TeaChEr To All ThE CooL KidS" responds by 'you can suck up for a better grade' and then laughs and gets some other kids in the class to laugh because hes SOOO funny!!!! that was first period. and then he is the parking lot monitor guy and he didnt even ask me for my pass to leave today. i must of had "i hate today" written on my forehead.
i hope he knows what a jackass he is. he doesnt though.
i feel so dumb. i was running late today. i lost my keys so i got my moms extra one she keeps for my car. i didnt do my hair. i dont have any make-up so whatever which doesnt bug me that much but it pisses me off that im ugly. i wore my goodwill guy pants that i cut up and are too big and a jacket. eww. and lastly when i go around looking like shit NONE of my friends ask me whats wrong, why i look like shit, and when i walk away without saying anything they just stand there.HE wouldnt even keep eye contact with me. im being such a pussy right now. and it makes me so much more like a pussy to ralize that fact that THEY couldnt care LESSSS about me.
im so tired of being invisible.