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First day of work. Fun. I met a TON of cool people. Jared was training me and Mike on host. We even got to "taste test" the food. I had a great time. It was busy though, we had to buss tables, and run around doing all kinds of bitchwork.
I work again tomorrow at 4. Jared was off work, but I requested he train me again, so he's covering another shift. yay! We're supposed to party together soon. He's hilarious. He reminds me of someone, but I can't put my finger on it. He was the once shy guy, now a people person. He told me the basics of the job: People are stupid. Act fake. haha. I love him already!
Im getting ready to meet up with Lindsey and Jamie. Yay. Want to smoke more weed.
Me and Kenny are dating again. I don't know how I feel about it. On one hand, I really want to be with him, and I want to enjoy our time together without being just "friends." But then again, I know I'm getting myself wrapped back into him, so when he breaks up with me again, it's going to be even harder. I guess I wasn't over him, persay, but I had accepted the break up, with the means of moving on. Now Im back at square one, head over heels, my head up his ass. I don't know. If he breaks up with me when he goes off to school, I'm going be pissed. Because that means Lindsey was right, and Kenneth was lying through his teeth.
Either way, I'm glad to have friends like Lindsey that care enough to intervene and tell me what they think. And I respect that. And I see what they are saying too. I thought the same thing. And I still MIGHT think the same. But it's like, any chance I get to be with him, I want to take, because I think if he sees this and we are still kind of together when we hang out, maybe he'll realize this IS what he really wants...and he'll stop doing this. And if not...I'm done. You can only go through so much heartbreak in one relationship...and if he's too immature for one, then that's that, and he's not going to change.
So there. Im leaving. hopefully getting really high. I hope everyone has a great night.
I work again tomorrow at 4. Jared was off work, but I requested he train me again, so he's covering another shift. yay! We're supposed to party together soon. He's hilarious. He reminds me of someone, but I can't put my finger on it. He was the once shy guy, now a people person. He told me the basics of the job: People are stupid. Act fake. haha. I love him already!
Im getting ready to meet up with Lindsey and Jamie. Yay. Want to smoke more weed.
Me and Kenny are dating again. I don't know how I feel about it. On one hand, I really want to be with him, and I want to enjoy our time together without being just "friends." But then again, I know I'm getting myself wrapped back into him, so when he breaks up with me again, it's going to be even harder. I guess I wasn't over him, persay, but I had accepted the break up, with the means of moving on. Now Im back at square one, head over heels, my head up his ass. I don't know. If he breaks up with me when he goes off to school, I'm going be pissed. Because that means Lindsey was right, and Kenneth was lying through his teeth.
Either way, I'm glad to have friends like Lindsey that care enough to intervene and tell me what they think. And I respect that. And I see what they are saying too. I thought the same thing. And I still MIGHT think the same. But it's like, any chance I get to be with him, I want to take, because I think if he sees this and we are still kind of together when we hang out, maybe he'll realize this IS what he really wants...and he'll stop doing this. And if not...I'm done. You can only go through so much heartbreak in one relationship...and if he's too immature for one, then that's that, and he's not going to change.
So there. Im leaving. hopefully getting really high. I hope everyone has a great night.