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When I woke up this morning I was confused and dizzy. The night before was completely ridiculous and I had way too much to drink. Monikka and I danced to goth music surrounded by goth kids. A man with a long hair and a mustache (think Johnny Depp in Pirates of the Carribbean) told us that he knew us. He asked when we could exchange magic and voodoo. And that was only halfway into the night. I fell asleep on her couch with no blanket. I kept waking up from being so cold and uncomfortable so I grabbed two of her coats and put them over me. My much-needed wake-up call (a phonecall, nothing figurative) came near it's usual hour and I started to feel more comfortable. There are so few people/things in my life right now that give me comfort that I'm really scared to lose any of them. They're few and far between so when I find them it's all magic and voodoo.
Things are crazy right now. For the first time in my entire life I feel completely alone and it's really strange. I don't have anyone to share life with except for my friends (who I love) but it's different when you have a partner or someone to keep you sane when things get tough. As of yesterday I have no place that I am truly comfortable in. I just close my eyes and pretend I'm in Norco or at Mona's on Frenchmen Street, the Iron Rail with Darin, painting Dylan's room Uptown, riding bikes through the Warehouse District and being scared of kids. Or I just think about being back in Aliso Viejo because it was very homey there. Being alone...living life alone is so overrated. I can't stress that to certain people enough. I just want to grow up and live my life with someone great and I don't know when that's going to happen.
This quote is good:
“One day at a time--this is enough. Do not look back and grieve over the past for it is gone; and do not be troubled about the future, for it has not yet come. Live in the present, and make it so beautiful it will be worth remembering.”
I'll post pictures from last night later on.
Things are crazy right now. For the first time in my entire life I feel completely alone and it's really strange. I don't have anyone to share life with except for my friends (who I love) but it's different when you have a partner or someone to keep you sane when things get tough. As of yesterday I have no place that I am truly comfortable in. I just close my eyes and pretend I'm in Norco or at Mona's on Frenchmen Street, the Iron Rail with Darin, painting Dylan's room Uptown, riding bikes through the Warehouse District and being scared of kids. Or I just think about being back in Aliso Viejo because it was very homey there. Being alone...living life alone is so overrated. I can't stress that to certain people enough. I just want to grow up and live my life with someone great and I don't know when that's going to happen.
This quote is good:
“One day at a time--this is enough. Do not look back and grieve over the past for it is gone; and do not be troubled about the future, for it has not yet come. Live in the present, and make it so beautiful it will be worth remembering.”
I'll post pictures from last night later on.